Penny for your thoughts?

by **MandaPantz13** on Tue Mar 17, 2009 12:39 am

Im in a stupid mood, one where u make stupid faces, talk back for no reason and get cranky easily but then swing back being happy and making weird noises at ur comp. LOL :dusto:

by **Phoenix** on Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:49 pm

Heh Manda I have days like that too. Right now I am supposed to be working on studying for my stupid literature final and i am making some progress but man... I cant stay focused. I keep needing to take a break from it. Well when the literature topics range from murder, rape, miscarriage and cannibalism, what do you expect? sheesh, the stories I have to study this time are not easy on the brain. My favorite section is the haiku part. I could write them just for fun any old day. I will be glad when tomorrow is over. Then Thursday night is PARTY NIGHT!!! And apparently there is a party happening at the local coffee shop tonight that I have been invited to that I might attend if I get this studying done first. I have 5 hours until the music starts, so we shall see. :goldblob:

by **Lillith** on Tue Mar 17, 2009 6:45 pm

My boy....................................

by **Phoenix** on Thu Mar 19, 2009 2:11 am

so i got drunk, realized the guy i love doesnt love me, but also realized that this other guy i know is my...angel...he loves me, and is there for me when i am at my worst and at my best... the one i can count on... my rock.. wow. so wierd the way things happen.

by **MandaPantz13** on Thu Mar 19, 2009 2:32 am

my head hurts...so tired...dont want to work but i need the money plus its a good excuse to get out of my house. Also wtf everytime i manage to forget about him even if its only for an hour i sat down to watch a DVD of charmed and the had an episode about the CHOSEN ONE and his name was the same name!! I mean come on!!! ist not even that common of a name!!!! the world wont let me forget him for a little while!!!!!!!!! :banghead:

by **MandaPantz13** on Sun Mar 22, 2009 8:03 am

by **Phoenix** on Sun Mar 22, 2009 5:40 pm

I have come to the conclusion today that I dont need a man.

i WANT a man.. much more positive way to view the situation

I'm trying to research stuff for my book and keep getting distracted but my dear angel somehow always manages to inspire me, whether he realizes it or not, his understanding shoulder and ear have got me through a rough time and his sexy way with words always seems to give my muse that extra kick in the butt that it needs

by **cindrella** on Sun Mar 22, 2009 9:45 pm

i do wonder how sex plays important role in our life more than our basic needs of food, ,,,,..

i think i feel better if things go well for me.. i would just get some relaxation in my life, take a lengthy off from work and have fun with my bf in some island beach

by **Phoenix** on Sun Mar 22, 2009 9:48 pm

Good sex feeds the soul, food only feeds the body.

by **Silver** on Mon Mar 23, 2009 3:56 pm

Thinking- is a fortune cookie a good enough snack? Nah. :eat:

Also, wish my best girl wasnt such a devious bitch. Maybe Im to nice, am a pushover I guess

. Grrrrrr!!!!!I hate it when people read over my shoulder, get out of here damn it!.8 year olds never be quiet!!!!! I think I will open a beer now. Wonder what to do for dinner tonight? Nothing sounds good! Think I will put on some music. :boogie:

by **IamMichie** on Mon Mar 23, 2009 4:22 pm

mmmmmmm....what is on my mind.

SPRING BREAK IS THE SHIT!!!

i love sitting her not thinking about school!!

by **Silver** on Mon Mar 23, 2009 4:53 pm

I think that I think too much! :dummy"

Also, think I will go for a walk.

by **cindrella** on Tue Mar 24, 2009 1:16 am

i think how do aliens look really... why can't they look pretty and gorgeous than us.. for them we are aliens and we look ugly

by **MandaPantz13** on Tue Mar 24, 2009 9:53 pm

my thoughts are too many too sad, some happy some miserable, some sick, some lame, some bored, some weird. too many thoguths thoughts for such a small mind i think im going to explode. i just want what i want and i know everything else will fall into place.

by **wishingyouwell** on Wed Mar 25, 2009 2:25 am

I'm thinking that I am tired and should probably try to get some sleep. :yawn:

by **cindrella** on Wed Mar 25, 2009 6:33 am

I think I am fed up with my work, lengthy working times ... I have to take a break at least for some days, but unfortanetely I could not take a vacation now, my hell office does not give much days to take off, I hate...still have to work there

,,, but what to do some things we can't change in life... I hope some day I could have a BIG break where i can enjoy visiting places i wish with my sweetheart..... I am waiting for that :cheers:

by **bigger nitch** on Wed Mar 25, 2009 6:51 pm

im thinking about what i would look like if i was born without skin or bones. i wonder if i would walk or if i would kinda slither around on the ground like a snake. or maybe i would just die as soon as i was born because i dont have any skin or bones.

by **Silver** on Wed Mar 25, 2009 7:19 pm

Thinking ...bacon smells sooo good! this would be more fun with someone to play with. Been awhile since I was here last tho. Wish I coulda used my old screen name!
I cant wait till my bacon cheeseburger is ready- yum! :eat:

by **cindrella** on Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:51 am

I met our family friend who were once before rented near our house about 16 to 17 years ago.. .. They are the family with 2 kids, they were very sweet that we were lucky to have them as a neighbour.. I was at that time in the primary school and used to play with their kids, it was so nice.. But when I saw him at our house after a very long gap, I could not identify, his face was changed, become old, bald, and i identified him only with his voice....

I was thinking that how the age changes the person's appearance,..., that this youth does not last forever, but LOVE for others lasts for ever, I am still remembering their love for us when we are kid.....

by **MandaPantz13** on Thu Mar 26, 2009 9:11 am

im am cranky and upste at the fucking world!! bah!! im sick of things!! everything!!!! im sick of ppl feeling sorry for me, im sick of ppl asking my advice and im sick of being sick!! i have now a mouth ful of ulcers that r burning and i cant sleep cpet when i cry myself to sleep for the last week and i cant stop my thoughts and his stupid cusin asking me about relationship advice and all i can think of is him. a dn his cuzin saying u dont know what ist like i think about her constantly etc etc and im like how do u think i fucking feel!!!!! bah!! my friends and family dont even realise what im going through cos im too scared to tell them cos im worried theyll think im pathetic and i dont want them to feel the burden of me being so dysfunctional right now. they ahev enough to worry about. its been 3 MONTHS surely id begin to feel some sort of closure by now hes told me how he feels!!!! even if his actions dont portray it! im sick of feeling like crap!!! im constantly sick cos im so stressed cos i cant seem to do anythign right atm!! my memory of him is beginning to fade, not my love for him but i can member his smeel and how i felt when i was with him (happy) but i have trouble picturing him in my head (not how he is but his looks) and im going insane!!! my mum n step dad r driving me nuts but then theyll be really nice and i cant be mad at them and then theyll annoy me and i want to move out when my cuzin buys a house like he said but ic ant afford it on my wage but i cant get another job cos no one is hiring!! and im giong INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss him so much id do anythig to stop feeling for him or to have him back if thats what would make him happy but i cant do either and im sick of waiting. i dont even look at other guys it doesnt feel right and theyre just not that appealing to me. bah! :banghead:

by **greenhavoc** on Thu Mar 26, 2009 5:57 pm

im thinking that post above me was waaayyyy ttooooo lllllloooonnnnggg.
im just messing with you,don't take it personal.

by **Phoenix** on Thu Mar 26, 2009 6:51 pm

Silver wrote:Thinking- is a fortune cookie a good enough snack? Nah. Also, wish my best girl wasnt such a devious bitch. Maybe Im to nice, am a pushover I guess . Grrrrrr!!!!!I hate it when people read over my shoulder, get out of here damn it!.8 year olds never be quiet!!!!! I think I will open a beer now. Wonder what to do for dinner tonight? Nothing sounds good! Think I will put on some music.

ROFL are you my long lost twin!?!?!?!

by **MandaPantz13** on Fri Mar 27, 2009 12:18 am

greenhavoc wrote:im thinking that post above me was waaayyyy ttooooo lllllloooonnnnggg.
im just messing with you,don't take it personal.

thats why its a penny for ur thoughts...those r my thoughts. doesnt have a limit on how long it is. just saying my thoughts.

by **cindrella** on Fri Mar 27, 2009 3:59 am

MandaPantz13 wrote:
greenhavoc wrote:im thinking that post above me was waaayyyy ttooooo lllllloooonnnnggg.
im just messing with you,don't take it personal.

thats why its a penny for ur thoughts...those r my thoughts. doesnt have a limit on how long it is. just saying my thoughts.

our thoughts are more or less same Manda, and last three lines exactly what i feel :banghead:

by **Silver** on Fri Mar 27, 2009 12:19 pm

Hmmm.... thinking I may have found my long lost twin at last :excited:

Now we just have to figure out which of us is the evil twin?!! :yikes

by **Phoenix** on Fri Mar 27, 2009 11:14 pm

That would be me. I am the evil one. :evil:

I am thinking I wonder if anyone in real life will notice if I sit here and do really naughty things to myself and others online. :evil:

by **MandaPantz13** on Sat Mar 28, 2009 12:45 am

Depends on if your like Peter Griffin on his 'internet porn night' where he sits bucknaked in an internet cafe...someone might notice, mind u u prob have a way better body then peter griffin so they might not care

hahaha!!

Cinder...its very frustrating, seeing as no one else seems to notice what im going through, guess im better at hiding it then i thought :S makes it very hard cos my best friend who was dating a guy for ages just got dumped last night and i know there snothign u can say or do and seeing how she was bought back memories

guess we have to plod on though. time will tell

by **Phoenix** on Sat Mar 28, 2009 2:07 am

I am wanting to snuggle up with someone special and talk about anything and everything, just hanging out, enjoying each other's company, that kind of thing. I wish I could do that.

by **cindrella** on Sat Mar 28, 2009 2:59 am

yes Manda, it is very hard for us, hope things will set right,.... I have no options than hiding.. It is relieving that i got friends here to share.. I too feel like that i have nice friends to hang over this weekend and forget worries. but could not get, all are busy with their mates.. I am not interested in guys for this, plenty are there, but it may make things worse.... Have to deal with it of my own :worry:

by **MandaPantz13** on Sun Mar 29, 2009 1:58 am

other guys just dont seem atractive to me anymore, (not that girls r haha) but i feel lost in limbo, and cinder i know what u eman cos either my mates r busy or going through similar things/have got perfect partners they can share threr lives with and i cant be around them too long. ugh. but im havign a good day today. i can feel his presence around me again. but its a good way. plus its sunday and i already worked but they want me to work some more YAY for sunday rates!!! :excited:

omg and im so excited cos i just bought tickets to see crusty demons live! (again) 2 months to go :excited:

by **cindrella** on Sun Mar 29, 2009 1:44 pm

You r exactly right Manda.... and enjoy

I dont prefer to work on sundays whatever they give////, i would b already loaded heavy on other days

and would work only if im really in need off...

I just came from outside, ..... i went to a holy place and it was so relaxing..... But i am always preoccupied with his thoughts, i dont know from where it comes from.... I just cant stop thinking about him...

I am happy that I finished my pending chores today ..... I think that i would get nice sleep now... :sleep:

..

by **Phoenix** on Sun Mar 29, 2009 5:04 pm

I am wondering what Cinderella's holy place is?

I have a place I like to go to in my imagination that always brings me peace. I wrote about it in my book, a lake surrounded by tall evergreens, its absolutely beautiful. A friend gave me photographs of a local lake that so closely resembles the lake from my imagination it is uncanny, yet I have never been there before. Strange huh? But this place is "holy" to me in a way... thinking about it calms me.

by **MandaPantz13** on Mon Mar 30, 2009 4:03 am

I only work sundays cos im casual so i dont work during the week much. i'd rather have a normal job but theres none going here atm so im taking what im getting

im thinking that i love ebing home alone n cranking the music LOUD!!!! :excited:

by **cindrella** on Mon Mar 30, 2009 4:47 am

that is great Manda... I am not getting chance like that

If all computer servers crush for a week, i would enjoy wihtout work :excited:

I think i am bad :evil:

to think like that yet cant deny

by **cindrella** on Mon Mar 30, 2009 4:52 am

Phoenix wrote:I am wondering what Cinderella's holy place is?

I have a place I like to go to in my imagination that always brings me peace. I wrote about it in my book, a lake surrounded by tall evergreens, its absolutely beautiful. A friend gave me photographs of a local lake that so closely resembles the lake from my imagination it is uncanny, yet I have never been there before. Strange huh? But this place is "holy" to me in a way... thinking about it calms me.

that holy place is secret

by **cindrella** on Tue Mar 31, 2009 12:40 pm

i think i am very tired today, i am loaded with heavy work, :yawn:

by **Phoenix** on Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:44 pm

cindrella wrote:
Phoenix wrote:I am wondering what Cinderella's holy place is?

I have a place I like to go to in my imagination that always brings me peace. I wrote about it in my book, a lake surrounded by tall evergreens, its absolutely beautiful. A friend gave me photographs of a local lake that so closely resembles the lake from my imagination it is uncanny, yet I have never been there before. Strange huh? But this place is "holy" to me in a way... thinking about it calms me.

that holy place is secret

I have a few rather "wicked" holy.. err... unholy places I have as well ? hehe :evil:

by **greenhavoc** on Wed Apr 01, 2009 9:37 pm

by **Phoenix** on Wed Apr 01, 2009 9:41 pm

I am thinking Green has been watching BattleStar Galactica re-runs

If anyone wants to roleplay/re-enact that tv show, I wanna be Kara Thrace, she is awesome and really fucked up in the head just like me

by **MandaPantz13** on Thu Apr 02, 2009 1:21 am

i think its hard to explain things when i dont even understand them myself

by **Phoenix** on Thu Apr 02, 2009 1:31 am

Right now i feel love.

and i am feeling romantic and want to snuggle. but how can one snuggle with a fantasy?

by **MandaPantz13** on Fri Apr 03, 2009 2:29 am

im thinking of the taylor swift song love stroy kinda sad song and corny but its nice too. kinda makes sense right now. he's back and going again tomorrow and needs my help but i cant help him (am working) so am hoping i get to at least see him and give him a big hug! maybe seeing him again will help me realise there is nothign anymore...........

by **cindrella** on Sat Apr 04, 2009 7:46 am

today i feel like abusing him,, :cry:

, now in a mental state that I could not describe :banghead:

it was awesome in the beginning, now it is like a hell.... i do want to text or call him.. he does see me as a unknown.. i am praying that the love I had for him would die....he does not want to do anything to me,,..... I want my heart to be empty.. better to be alone than to be with such a relationship.... the thoughts of him spoils my mood, not able to concentrate... get out of my heart u ****, get out of my heart, mind, and everything.. go away :crying:

by **MandaPantz13** on Sun Apr 05, 2009 2:23 am

cindrella wrote:today i feel like abusing him,, , now in a mental state that I could not describe it was awesome in the beginning, now it is like a hell.... i do want to text or call him.. he does see me as a unknown.. i am praying that the love I had for him would die....he does not want to do anything to me,,..... I want my heart to be empty.. better to be alone than to be with such a relationship.... the thoughts of him spoils my mood, not able to concentrate... get out of my heart u ****, get out of my heart, mind, and everything.. go away

nawwww cinder ::::HUGS:::: i know how u feel that really does suck. One of my friends once wrote down exactly that on a piece of paper (she wrote i love you (name) and i always will care for you but its time for me to move on so please let me go) and then she burnt it and it worked for her. you never know its all in your beliefs i guess.

My thoughts are allllllllll about one thing!!! I hate starting things that dont get finished! cant think but i gotta go to work! bah!

by **Phoenix** on Sun Apr 05, 2009 1:45 pm

I know what you mean Cinderella, wow I sure do know what you mean!! ::hugs:: I'm here for ya girl :heartpump:

by **MandaPantz13** on Mon Apr 06, 2009 8:55 am

*cough* ahem *cough* :whistling:

my head is filled with just one thing atm hahaha

by **cindrella** on Sat Apr 11, 2009 8:44 am

how anyone would feel if their loved ones who had loved, liked, talked sweetly before is now avoiding and ignoring them badly.. :crying:

Its like some one stabbing the open heart with sharp knife.. I do feel the same pain now.

by **puppyjill** on Sat Apr 11, 2009 5:45 pm

even though im extremely exhausted from all the shit ive done today i feel really good very stable today. i think hard work is good for the soul, mind an body.us

by **Phoenix** on Sat Apr 11, 2009 7:05 pm

I'm feeling rather like the morning after today. I spent the last 2 days getting barely any sleep and just woke up around 3 pm today! And no, not hung over, just.. groggy from sleeping so much and feel a bit like I finally caught up on my sleep. But that means today I have a lot of work to do and can't be here in dreammoods as much as I'd like.

by **puppyjill** on Sat Apr 11, 2009 7:59 pm

i will meese you im sure youll come see me later. pup gives phoe sad puppy eyes an wispers i will be all alone dont leave?