Real secrets to fume out

[Jtini87]

This is a place where you can express aspects of yourself that you can't really express to anyone in reality to uncommon things people don't talk about.

This is the place where you can fume.

Some may replied or others may never but to express yourself is the best thing you can do, free yourself from worry and doubts

[Xwikki]

Good idea for a thread... but everyone here knows who I am.

[CeciliaMystic]

Oh is that so?

[Jtini87]

Forgive me for the long rant but I must fume what I'm about to bear for no one knows this...

I must express it not only in my art.

My muse has return to a happy life of love leaving me to be muse by the absents, a painful feeling I haven't felt for ages...I feel more alive
compare before meeting my muse.

Before I was looking through dead eyes until I felt a gut feeling as if someone set fire to the empty stomach of my soul.

Now marks the end, to a new muse that speaks with their eyes as well with their mind but to shake off the last muse is like shaking off a drug, or the death of a loved one.

While living their new life rigth before me and I
can't get as close as the lines that was cross, like lines crossing on a canvas making a breath taking expression.

Is there apart of me afraid of change? Maybe but it is comfort in this point which doesn't mean is best for me. Life can get better.
I must let go. Take what I gained and reach a higher plane of freedom.
Always grateful yet human enough to be missing the simplicity that bored me. Yet brought me back to life. I must live on...
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[CeciliaMystic]

Forgive me for the long rant but I must fume what I'm about to bear for no one knows this...

I must express it not only in my art.

My muse has return to a happy life of love leaving me to be muse by the absents, a painful feeling I haven't felt for ages...I feel more alive
compare before meeting my muse.

Before I was looking through dead eyes until I felt a gut feeling as if someone set fire to the empty stomach of my soul.

Now marks the end, to a new muse that speaks with their eyes as well with their mind but to shake off the last muse is like shaking off a drug, or the death of a loved one.

While living their new life rigth before me and I
can't get as close as the lines that was cross, like lines crossing on a canvas making a breath taking expression.

Is there apart of me afraid of change? Maybe but it is comfort in this point which doesn't mean is best for me. Life can get better.
I must let go. Take what I gained and reach a higher plane of freedom.
Always grateful yet human enough to be missing the simplicity that bored me. Yet brought me back to life. I must live on...
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I like this expression of yours-at first i was skeptical thinking i probably won't comprehend any of it while i was reading but i understand where you are coming from-i suppose...

Anyways this is a good thread knowing how people on DM love to say what they wanna say and it's a great way here to start....So i'll try to express how i feel ever so often...

Drama.how i wished it never existed sometimes when i see the same people who are constantly causing it seems to me they love it.Conflict.I know it will only cause conflict that's why i try to avoid it.Sometimes i do it by not saying anything at all even when it's not fair in every injustice way even though it kills me inside i don't want conflict.My heart just starts beating faster when i know something is wrong.I know some of you have drama in your lives especially with family and im sick of it,im sure we all are..

[Jtini87]

Good idea for a thread... but everyone here knows who I am.

Hahahaa do we know who we are fully at every moment ? If we examine the secerts and feelings we have then we can really move on knowing who we are. To moving on to other angles of your being.
So how do you feel now is an ex. to moments before to why you put the cookies in the cookie jar over dipping it in almond milk

[Jtini87]

I must let go. Take what I gained and reach a higher plane of freedom.
Always grateful yet human enough to be missing the simplicity that bored me. Yet brought me back to life. I must live on...
[/b][/color]

I like this expression of yours-at first i was skeptical thinking i probably won't comprehend any of it while i was reading but i understand where you are coming from-i suppose...

Anyways this is a good thread knowing how people on DM love to say what they wanna say and it's a great way here to start....So i'll try to express how i feel ever so often...

Drama.how i wished it never existed sometimes when i see the same people who are constantly causing it seems to me they love it.Conflict.I know it will only cause conflict that's why i try to avoid it.Sometimes i do it by not saying anything at all even when it's not fair in every injustice way even though it kills me inside i don't want conflict.My heart just starts beating faster when i know something is wrong.I know some of you have drama in your lives especially with family and im sick of it,im sure we all are..

Have you ever thought of going with your heart in that moment as it beat faster the real thoughts you have in mind to those that provoke you to feel that way? If they don't learn the first it's best to distance yourself. This year has been strange for family but bc I distance myself and I see the obvious conflict but I can't help them until I help myself. I feel guilty just saying that but we must

[Xwikki]

Oh is that so?

Besides you. Never you.

Hahahaa do we know who we are fully at every moment ? If we examine the secerts and feelings we have then we can really move on knowing who we are. To moving on to other angles of your being.
So how do you feel now is an ex. to moments before to why you put the cookies in the cookie jar over dipping it in almond milk

...
I kinda just meant that people have my facebook and ect.

[Jtini87]

Oh is that so?

Besides you. Never you.

Hahahaa do we know who we are fully at every moment ? If we examine the secerts and feelings we have then we can really move on knowing who we are. To moving on to other angles of your being.
So how do you feel now is an ex. to moments before to why you put the cookies in the cookie jar over dipping it in almond milk

...
I kinda just meant that people have my facebook and ect.

I would start an alter ego account if I was you

[Xwikki]

I would start an alter ego account if I was you

Oh I already have one.

[CeciliaMystic]

Oh is that so?

Besides you. Never you.

"Besides Me"?...So you're saying you don't want me to know you (If you heard a loud crack that was my heart breaking)

I must let go. Take what I gained and reach a higher plane of freedom.
Always grateful yet human enough to be missing the simplicity that bored me. Yet brought me back to life. I must live on...
[/b][/color]

I like this expression of yours-at first i was skeptical thinking i probably won't comprehend any of it while i was reading but i understand where you are coming from-i suppose...

Anyways this is a good thread knowing how people on DM love to say what they wanna say and it's a great way here to start....So i'll try to express how i feel ever so often...

Drama.how i wished it never existed sometimes when i see the same people who are constantly causing it seems to me they love it.Conflict.I know it will only cause conflict that's why i try to avoid it.Sometimes i do it by not saying anything at all even when it's not fair in every injustice way even though it kills me inside i don't want conflict.My heart just starts beating faster when i know something is wrong.I know some of you have drama in your lives especially with family and im sick of it,im sure we all are..

Have you ever thought of going with your heart in that moment as it beat faster the real thoughts you have in mind to those that provoke you to feel that way? If they don't learn the first it's best to distance yourself. This year has been strange for family but bc I distance myself and I see the obvious conflict but I can't help them until I help myself. I feel guilty just saying that but we must

It's obvoius to say but that's exactly how i feel and even when i want to be a solution to a problem by trying to discuss a certain conflict by speaking humbly i still feel im just going to be intwined with the problem instead of finding a solution just by me trying to reason with someone because im afraid it will remain a conflict...and i want no part of it...

[Jtini87]

Reminds me of a friend that was nothing but trouble but to me it was that with a lot of fun. Until it intervine w my life. It ended with her out of town asking me to pack her things where she was boarding and take them to another place an hour away. Only 4 luggages she said.

I said no She text me, email me, called me all day.
When I'm finally back on my grind, working etc
Then she continues for a week, I give in bc it was a time sensitive matter.

Before I knew it I was packing 12luggages while her landlady complains about her.
Her landlady reveals a background check that made me realize how much of a mess she was. Even messier than her belongings
Besides being ungrateful I knew I had to cut her off.
I felt so used almost lost hope in people in general.
Until I volunteer at a soup kitchen and met people who inspired me Felt good to do good for another . People that became friends that had their life together. They never saw conflict they only saw resolve.

This friend she just didn't learn and I can't follow her while she goes in circles you must move on hope by example they will catch on.

[physco kid]

I don't know what to,I'm still a mental mess trying to clean myself like a mop cleaning a floor,Except i get all the crap dumped back repeatedly.
I still can't seem to let go of my past,If only i still keep clinging
I cant actually trust people Even if they can trusted
I am socially messed and dont know who to trust and who not -______-
(Call me shy if ya want!) I have a fear of talking to people face to face internet i have no problem. Phone i still have awkwardness talking.

Yay! a little less weight good thread Jtini87

[CeciliaMystic]

Reminds me of a friend that was nothing but trouble but to me it was that with a lot of fun. Until it intervine w my life. It ended with her out of town asking me to pack her things where she was boarding and take them to another place an hour away. Only 4 luggages she said.

I said no She text me, email me, called me all day.
When I'm finally back on my grind, working etc
Then she continues for a week, I give in bc it was a time sensitive matter.

Before I knew it I was packing 12luggages while her landlady complains about her.
Her landlady reveals a background check that made me realize how much of a mess she was. Even messier than her belongings
Besides being ungrateful I knew I had to cut her off.
I felt so used almost lost hope in people in general.
Until I volunteer at a soup kitchen and met people who inspired me Felt good to do good for another . People that became friends that had their life together. They never saw conflict they only saw resolve.

This friend she just didn't learn and I can't follow her while she goes in circles you must move on hope by example they will catch on.

I was grasped by your story and im sure for you that was a true experience as a lesson that you've learned

[physco kid]

[color=#800040][b]Reminds me of a friend that was nothing but trouble but to me it was that with a lot of fun. Until it intervine w my life. It ended with her out of town asking me to pack her things where she was boarding and take them to another place an hour away. Only 4 luggages she said.

I said no She text me, email me, called me all day.
When I'm finally back on my grind, working etc
Then she continues for a week, I give in bc it was a time sensitive matter.

Before I knew it I was packing 12luggages while her landlady complains about her.
Her landlady reveals a background check that made me realize how much of a mess she was. Even messier than her belongings
Besides being ungrateful I knew I had to cut her off.
I felt so used almost lost hope in people in general.
Until I volunteer at a soup kitchen and met people who inspired me Felt good to do good for another . People that became friends that had their life together. They never saw conflict they only saw resolve.

This friend she just didn't learn and I can't follow her while she goes in circles you must move on hope by example they will catch on.

Didnt see that. Sounds like almost every person i met. But thats awesome.