i just want to understand!

[CrystalSada1989]

Hello felllow dreamers...my name is crystal and i need help on understanding my dreams.
First off let me start by saying when i was fifteen i had a surgery to remove a ovarian cyst and which i was told that my right ovary was removed and my left fallopian tube was blocked I really want to have a baby on my own, but it doesn't look like thats gonna happen. But i always have wierd dreams about having children. Like once i had a dream i had a baby boy then out of nowhere he just popped like a bubble and i remember waking up and being very sad. But last night i had a dream and i can almost remember every part of it. I was in some sort of high school because i remeber kids walking around with books, but it was night outside and im walking through this school with a man im not familiar with and my stomach was big like i was pregnant. We went to sit down in this room where he began rubbing my stomach asking me if was pregnant. And i said no it couldn't be because i cant get pregnant. Then all of a sudden he says well your husbabnd is here to pick you up. So as we were walking towards the exit of the school i see my husband stand there with our two dogs but what was puzzling about this part is my pitbull red was like a little puppy even tho he is 7yrs old. So i grab my husbands hand and he takes me to an old ragedy pick up. I guess i didnt feel to comfortable about riding in the pick up truck because it just pulls off out of nowhere and i remeber seeing a little girl sitting on the back with a yellow sweatshirt on. So me and my husband and our two dogs are running after the truck. I remeber my husband running out into traffic and me lagging behind with the dogs on the side walk and then tinkerbell my two year old yorkie kind of wonders off into the street with lots of traffic. Then my husband yells to me get your dog out of the street your so worhtless which was kind of shocking because my husband would never refer to me as "worthelss". But after i just remeber looking into his eyes and he had the meanest look on his face, and i just sort of woke up. Again i felt a little sad because this dream although clearly a dream seemed so real! Could someone tell me what this means? Will i ever have my baby on my own or is this just my mind wanting to be a mother so bad?

[shadowofwind]

I guess the traffic would be the challenges of life, and the dogs would be your desire, and you feel worthless because you seem to be impotent to accomplish what you see as major goals in life? The little girl is your feeling, and also the child it seems you won't have, and the old pickup truck is how you see your body, or your reproductive potential?

I guess it goes without saying that there are other things in life besides parenting, other ways to take care of people and accomplish something worthwhile. It would seem that one of the things that would make your life worthwhile to you would be to meet this challenge, to find another way to give your life value.

I guess you know about in-vitro fertilization. The last I talked to someone about this a few years ago it costs about $10K in the US, but it costs that much just to have a baby in a hospital these days, so having children is expensive for everyone.

I don't think that dreams are very reliable as prophecies for what will happen in this sort of situation, even if you're a person who's prone to accurate premonitions in dreams. Reproductive destiny is a deep thing, and you can see things that are sort of connected to your soul that don't correspond to events in your life in a way that you would recognize. It feels almost as if there are people like us or closely related to us in other worlds, and we can sometimes experience something of what happens to them, but its not us exactly.

Sorry for my somewhat curt responses on a sensitive subject, I'm not in a very comfortable place emotionally today, but I hope that helps a little. Best wishes.