I cannot stop crying

[dnbsweeheart08]

My dreams are falling apart because of my family and this fucking economy. I feel so guilty for getting a wonderful education I cannot afford and my school is not helping out. Debt is chocking me and I feel like going after other means of income to make it.

I am so deppressed right now.

[0-TheFool]

*hug*

[Jon!]

I've been through that DNB... not so long ago either.

I started a college course when i was knee height in debt and when ur over 21 in the UK and in college there is NO help what-so-ever financially.
I still have my debts - they'll be with me forever due to a mistake i made when i was younger. But sometimes there are ways around the system of learning what you want and getting paid for it.

Have you tried searching for jobs related to what you're learning where you get training? I started an animal management course, quit and got a job at a rescue sanctuary and now i have a job in a breeding kennel in Italy. It can happen if you search in the right places.

[dnbsweeheart08]

I've been through that DNB... not so long ago either.

I started a college course when i was knee height in debt and when ur over 21 in the UK and in college there is NO help what-so-ever financially.
I still have my debts - they'll be with me forever due to a mistake i made when i was younger. But sometimes there are ways around the system of learning what you want and getting paid for it.

Have you tried searching for jobs related to what you're learning where you get training? I started an animal management course, quit and got a job at a rescue sanctuary and now i have a job in a breeding kennel in Italy. It can happen if you search in the right places.

My back up is vocal therapy in Grad school. Actually I want to compose and sing my music but ironically school and life is stifling my plans and creativity by making me deppressed.

I feel so frustrated because everytime I think something good happens, it proven otherwise. I feel I am stuck in life with a person that is so desperately trying to hold on to me and I do not want them but they are so emotionally unstable, I cannot escape. The love of my life is dead. And when I thought I was going to find new love, I am once again dissapointed. My parents argue about money nonstop. My grampa is dying, and I have a stomach flu during midterms ... I just want something really good to happen to me.... not just psyche me out. At least one thing to make me happy....is that so much to ask?

[Jon!]

stop flapping for a start lol that will make u feels tons better. Just relax... meditate or something. Find yourself some quiet alone time.

If u believe u cant do anything, then nothing good will happen. First off it sounds like ur paying for an education that u can teach urself for free. Pretty sure u can buy a vocal cd for millions times cheaper than what ur course costs. Second of all, singing is so much more varied and open these days. Get urself a recorder, record urself singing what you've written, play it back to urself and work on whatever you think dont sound right until u get it all right. U dont have to have a degree in singing these days to get urself a record deal, u just have to sound different enough and stand out.

Next on the list, it sounds like it's time to tell this person to give u some breathing space. Tell them they need to sort their problems out and it's something u cant help them with. Sure, u want to be the decent person and be there for them. But u are only human and they cant expect u to fall into everything they want. And love is over-rated these days anyways. You dont need a partner to go out and spoil u. Go get ur hair done, get one of them girl flicks, chinese and a box of choccies. Maybe even invite a few girlfriends round. If u can love urself like i love myself, then you wont need a relationship ^_-

Fact, parents argue. I've gotten away with it for most my life due to not having a dad around. But now my mums re-married to another dick-head, they argue pretty much everyday about the simplest of crap, but yet they feel they need to get divorced over it. Which is why i'm falling over myself to get me the fuck out. And go visit ur grandpa, spend some time with him before he goes. Everyone dies, your time will come eventually too. But when it's someone u love, it's so much harder, so make sure they know how much you love em before they go.

If you relax about most things you'll find dealing with them a whole lot easier, and that may eliminate most of the stress thats causing ur stomach flu's.