Penny for your thoughts?

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:04 pm

Phoenix wrote:Actually Phox, there was a night he tried to say something online here drunk and we still have no idea what he was saying lol

wait... how did you know pyro and I were going out? (besides a few hints)

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:06 pm

Phox it is sooooo obvious darling

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:11 pm

lol, I guess it is.

by **Pyrocensored** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:11 pm

uhm, yea...

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:16 pm

You guys are cute together.

by **Pyrocensored** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:17 pm

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:23 pm

and I see you also have a husband that roots for the home team too?

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:25 pm

I think the best part of relationships is when everything is wild and exciting and the communication is really good. You hug and kiss and touch as often as possible and you feel like you are on top of the world. :sigh:: I want that again.

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:26 pm

Phoxtrot wrote:and I see you also have a husband that roots for the home team too?

LOL um yeah... you two wanna come over and get him out of the closet?

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 7:32 pm

ah... in the closet...

well, do this. tim told me that he is a teacher. so, what you need to do, is fill his classroom with dildos.

we did that to a teacher once with $4000 dollars worth of them. best money ever spent...lol

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:11 pm

actually me and a friend were thinking about getting him a gay pride balloon and putting it in his office for his 40th birthday which is monday.

by **topaz** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:15 pm

ahaha! do it..

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:16 pm

It will really stand out too cause the rest of the balloons will be black

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:18 pm

haha, lol. id love to see that!

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:22 pm

The funny thing is, he won't know it was me that did it, cause I wont admit a damned thing. It could be anyone from the college hehe

by **Pyrocensored** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:27 pm

ha, lol. priceless

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:34 pm

the funny thing is, he probably wont even get it.

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:40 pm

well, on his computer background you could put two guys just going at it...

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:45 pm

ROFLMAO!!!!!! ooohhh that would be hilarious if not for the risk of getting him fired lol

by **Pyrocensored** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:47 pm

ok, just spraypaint on his car "we all think your gay"

that should do the trick...

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:53 pm

oh god that is so funny roflmao oooohhh wow lol.. I am laughing sooo hard haha

I already call him rainbow brite

There were these guys that me and my friend saw on campus once that ceran wrapped this person's car. I wish I could have gotten a hold of them and had them do my husbands car

by **Phoxtrot** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:53 pm

or you could put up posters around the campus telling everyone that its proffesor whatever's birthday, and if your a guy he sure would love it if you showed a little gay pride appreciation!

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 8:55 pm

OOhhhh that is goood!!!

by **Pyrocensored** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 9:05 pm

but even better than ceran wrap:

tin foil

by **Phoenix** on Sat Jan 31, 2009 9:07 pm

You're funny Pyro.. so is Phox.

:::hugs to you both::::

by **MandaPantz13** on Sun Feb 01, 2009 7:55 pm

LOL omg thats so cool.

You totally gotta do something for his birthday. Get him a male stripper or something then u can both enjoy the show

hahhaha

by **Sasukeismine22** on Sun Feb 01, 2009 9:38 pm

Im thinkin Arby's! Jk! Im thinkn mmmm.... Ice cream cake *Eats ice cream cake*

by **MandaPantz13** on Mon Feb 02, 2009 9:00 am

Ugh im so confused and frazzeled and worried and blah too many thoughts happening at once through my head. all i wanna do is at least speak to him properly to know if this is going to work again or whether im clinging to nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bah now i have a headache.

by **Phoenix** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 3:01 am

I hand Manda a bottle of aspirin and tell her to relax. Have a nice glass of red wine and take a bubble bath. Everything will be okay, he said that he loves you, and you just have to be patient and not turn into psycho needy girl

by **loved22** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 3:21 am

Phoenix

Good advice

by **Noire** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 4:54 pm

"I fail at life..."

by **topaz** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 6:18 pm

what? why?

by **Noire** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 6:48 pm

Bad mood atm. Had an amazing high last night and then I slammed down this evening. Different things really.

Loneliness mixed with hopelessness. Stress over school, uni offers and poor friends. Then there's this guy and I thought he liked me, but then he got back with ex, continued to show signs of liking me, broke up with ex and now I can't get back in contact with him and feel terrible. I want to move on because of all these bad feelings, but as I said before - something won't let me

He's on my mind nearly constantly and I can't get the thoughts of him out. :banghead:

Pheonix!! You lurking? Strawberry margaritas please?

by **Phoenix** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 8:03 pm

Noire, my situation is crazy confused. I dont know what to think or do anymore. Armando hasn't called or contacted me in over a month, and I honestly dont know if he WILL contact me again. I feel like I am banging my head against the wall.

In the meantime, there is this guy here at school- Billy. He's really starting to get under my skin. I don't know what to think about him. The more I get to know him the more I realize how much passion and depth he has- and we have so much in common!! But we are 14 years apart in ages... what the hell could he possibly see in someone 14 years older than him?? And yet, all the signs are there, he seems to genuinely LIKE me. This morning he just randomly got out his camera and took a picture of me while I was laughing. (He's an amazing photographer, and made me look like a friggin model) He makes me FEEL like a model. I haven't been around a guy in real life that makes me feel beautiful like this in a long time.

Maybe Billy has come into my life for a reason... maybe him being in my life can help me get over Armando?

It's Billy I've been dreaming about the last few nights, not Armando. And thats a drastic change from the last almost 11 years.

by **topaz** on Tue Feb 03, 2009 11:14 pm

in my opinion, billy seems much more healthier for you.
he makes you happy

by **MandaPantz13** on Wed Feb 04, 2009 12:16 am

Wow phoenix thanks for the kind words i know its true, i couldnt contact him even if i wanted to hes out on a fishing boat and has no signal so yeh. but yeh, i dont want to wait and have him break my heart again. But he did say he loves me so i gues its just faith. OMG i so hope his facebook acount has been hacked cos its all over it that him and some chick are all serius and thats hes enagaged to her and stuff and i just dont understand, but he dont have access to that nw either blah. So im asking his cousin in hopes just to settle my nerves.

Phoenix babe, maybe this guy really does like you, i know alot of my frridn go for older chicks cos they 'have more experience and tell you wat they want" but he does seem nice and its always good to have someone who makes u feel good, which he obviously does. Just go with the flow, let time take its course and remember everyone comes into our life for a reason.

by **Pyrocensored** on Wed Feb 04, 2009 11:46 pm

I cant really think straight... im not sure what to think of some things...

Ive got so much going for me, so many friends, and that special someone who i couldnt live without. But even then, i feel lonely. That it will all soon be shattered. Im just tired of being the same person all the time, and especially tired of trying to break the rhythm of life. Ive got all i could ever ask for, but still, somethings missing.

I feel I havnt earned all of what I have. I run a company that my parents gave me when they went to New York, and im doing incredibly well, however I havent earned it. Im not the one that went through the hardships trying to start a company. I dont know. Im thinking about just selling the company for the 2 mil that its worth, and starting over. starting clean. Actually doing something for myself. the only problem with that is that I have way too much to worry about as it is. between school, firefighting, personal life, ROTC, and volunteering for two other organizations, I just find myself overwhelmed before I can even think about anything else.

Does anyone feel this way? Has anyone ever felt this way?

This is what happens when I just start typing everything that comes to mind. perhaps I should do it more often...)

by **Phoenix** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 12:40 am

I walk up to Pyro and wrap my arms around him, giving him a big hug.

"Pyro sweetie, what you need is to take a step back and re-evaluate everything that is going on in your life and think about what you want to accomplish."

Make a few lists- a list of things you HAVE to do, a list of things you want to do, and a list of your goals. The most important list is your goals. Then look at the list of things you "Have to" do and the list of things you want to do, and remove anything and everything that will hinder your goals.

That will help you focus and "keep your eyes on the prize."

by **Pyrocensored** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 12:48 am

What would you say would be the difference between have to and want to?

Want to is something that I put high on my priorities. Ive always wanted to go to Europe.

"Have to" is a phrase that has many meanings. I could sit here and tell you a thousand different meanings of "have to". to me, "have to" is a life function. I have to eat to live. What would you consider "have to"?

by **Phoenix** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 12:54 am

I categorize "have to" as things like obligations I am committed to that I can't get out of, say, by tomorrow. Things that require me fulfilling a time committment kind of duty, like being an officer in a club at school, that type of thing.

by **Pyrocensored** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 1:00 am

so like goals... only more committed?

by **Phoenix** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 1:44 am

Have to things can be things that are goal oriented, but until you write them down and analyze what you want to accomplish, you dont always realize that some of those "have to" things are things that are actually preventing you from accomplishing what you want. Some of those "have to do things" can actually be eliminated.

by **MandaPantz13** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 1:57 am

I thinking that im gonna gte drunk tonight and i dont care! blah!

by **Pyrocensored** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 2:07 am

so then have to would be less important than want to.

and what have to is basically a most preferable result of want to?

by **Phoenix** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 2:17 am

oh i cant explain it anymore i got a headache lol

by **Pyrocensored** on Fri Feb 06, 2009 2:21 am

lol...

I beleive ive got the basics down...

by **MandaPantz13** on Sun Feb 08, 2009 8:53 pm

ok my head is full of thoughts!

Im thinking of him non stop and how i cant contact him (in my sleep or otherwise) and im thinking how much i need to get a job otherwise im not going to be able to do my trip in may, and im thinking about coming to america to do those camp councelling things my step sister was telling me about and im thinking about how much my hand hurts (i punched a brick wall 3 years ago and its never healed properly) and im thinking how everything is just fucking up at the moment and that i was want to scream.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by **Pyrocensored** on Wed Feb 11, 2009 9:44 pm

This will preobably be my last night on DM for a while.

theres gonna be a fight tomorrow at school between me and some other weak-ass kid who thinks he can say whatever he wants to about my beloved air force. He really isnt a strong person, and i dont really want to do it, but NOBODY talkes about the armed forces like that. Ill either get away with it, or ill be in juvie for the next couple weeks.

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Nemo me impune laccesit

by **Phoenix** on Sat Feb 14, 2009 10:45 pm

Pyro!! now I am worried about you!! :banghead:

I understand your need to defend what you believe in baby, but violence isn't the answer!! Don't screw up your life. :pacing:

Well The plot thickens today folks. I open up my email and what do I see? TWO emails... one from "Armando" and another from Billy!!!! The reading I'd received about Armando was pretty much dead on- he's overwhelmed and not happy. I told him I am here for him if he wanted to talk, so we will see what happens with that. At least he will know that I won't bail on him this time.

And Billy... my friendship with him seems to be growing, and the lustful thoughts are absolutely wicked. I am terrified of hurting him but at the same time cannot stay away from him.

The irony of the situation is, I looked up my compatibility astrologically with both of them... and I am extremely compatible with BOTH of them.

Argh.. do you remember when I jokingly wished for a harem of my own? to have several men loving and adoring me? well holy crap, apparently I need to be careful what I wish for, because it's starting to look like I am getting it!!!

Then of course, there's my husband- the man who wont touch me or talk to me- who is as I write this spending Valentines day playing role playing games with the guys... quite possibly with his special friend too.

:banghead:

The absolute horror of the situation is this- someone, someday is going to wind up getting hurt. deeply. because one day there WILL be a day of reckoning and I will be forced to make a choice.

by **Pyrocensored** on Sun Feb 15, 2009 3:25 am

oh holy sh*t that sucks...

and one of the teachers overheard the fight, and it eventually took the Resource Officer to break it up... He did decide to press charges, but im out after 24 hours... (took three days cuz they had me till the hearing, which im surprised came that quick)...

hooray for justice ^.^
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There is one problem tho... I just cant get the bloodstain out of my favorite pants :crying: