Job Hunting Turns into Finding A Boyfriend!

[SolderLover]

It is personal. Even thought I think I got it figured out there are things that I still need to figure out. Like who is my soulmate so something negative can come to an end and I can't get myself to tell myself the name even though I know God told me when I was eight. I told him when I got older I would let myself know. All I do know is that he has light colored hair and he loves to wear a tan sweater and blue jeans. I want to say that is D but I am not sure.

[SolderLover]

I think I figured out why Decemeber first is suppose to bring me hope. It's Liz's first shot of Chemo after the surgery I was suppose to know if she was going better on that date. Well it turns out as things look she is doing worse. So I guess it depends if things will go as planned or if they will start Chemo earlier than that. If they have a few rounds I guess that's when we will get hope and know if she will live past her birthday. It has nothing to do with Jay or with D.

For them it's who shows on November 20th knowing that I will be going to see "New Moon in theater at their Midnight showing (if they have one again!!!!!). I know they will show because they showed the last time and they knew I wanted to be spider monkey so they know Twlight is very much apart of me. Then I owe them two movies of their choice. Then again they showed up to every Resident Evil.

[SolderLover]

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There is the dress that I had a vision of when I was writing a story of mine and I was suppose to wear it to a birthday party. I couldn't describe it and at the time I said that it was something that I would see in the future. My soulmate was suppose to buy it because they knew I wouldn't have the money to get it and they would love to see me it.

[chellchell86]

so thats the exact dress and color?

oh and you rememberd the special date i told you to pay attention to from before.so it was for your sister?

[SolderLover]

Yes that exact dress and color. Blue is my favorite color and he loves seeing me in blue.

Yes I believe that special date is for my sister. That is when we will have hope she'll make it past her birthday. That was when they were going to start chemo again after her surgery. But it's getting bumbed up, she'll be starting in a few days if things go well. If she gets two to three weeks of chemo we should see improvements and we'll know if she can survive it or if she's untreatable by that time.

[chellchell86]

well some dreams do come true.and i believe god has special plans for you this holiday season.to where you will be smiling and crying with happiness.trust me.you wanted something to hope for and you will get it.don't think all your good deeds go un noticed.

[SolderLover]

Right now I am in the place that I will believe it when it happens. Every christmas hasn't been all that joyful for me. As much as I would hope for one to be I don't count on it to be. I am just grateful to have family. I am done trying to figure out if Mr. Right will come to me that way if he does it will certainly be a surprise.

[SolderLover]

I had another dream that O'Relliy's called me for an interview and it was Ross who called. I thought that it was the other store that I applied at the first time but it was the other store that had returned the call. He was asking me questions over the phone as though it was a pre interview. He wanted to know if I knew how luckly I was for being employed for them. I told him that I couldn't wait to start.

Don't know if this is just a dream or if I will really be working for them. All I know is I'll be happy working at any part store right now.

[chellchell86]

oh i hope all goes good for you.you deserve it.december will be a month of hope for you.

[SolderLover]

I need things to happen now. I can't wait for Decemeber. My PTSD has gotten so bad that I am having nightmares coming to. Can you imagine a spirit possessing your body beating up your face and you wake up to your fist punching your face the way the spirit did? I hate Seth!!!!

I know who my soulmate is. It's Jay!

[chellchell86]

have you seen that ne movie called paranormal activity? it's a true case.people like me and you are highly succeptable to things like that.there comes a time when we need help outside ourselves.everything happens for a reason.so maybe theres a reason that it came to my head as i thought of you.

[SolderLover]

have you seen that ne movie called paranormal activity? it's a true case.people like me and you are highly succeptable to things like that.there comes a time when we need help outside ourselves.everything happens for a reason.so maybe theres a reason that it came to my head as i thought of you.

No I haven't seen it but I want to because I know that movie will relate to what I am going through. I just don't have the money to see it right now. I agree that we are highly succeptable to those things because of our bright light. Some spirits mistake us as angels if its too bright.

Now that I think I know why I have been dreaming about D so much do you see where it seems like I am trying to show him why I don't trust him and where he lost me. Look at the long dream that I posted about the motorcycle then the other dreams and you will see a common theme.

[chellchell86]

i know i remeber telling you that before.he's always doing the same things to you no matter the situation your in.and as far as the demons thing.can you look more into that too.because i dont ever want to become possessed just because we are succeptable to it.there are sighns.and i think both of us experienced them.

[SolderLover]

I don't have the time to look into that. I would need to find someone that does paranormal research. SJM gave me a website where they have people talking about the paranormal. I can give you that site and you can join it for free and ask people there what they do. That is the best that I can do. Also A Haunting has a website and they have researchers on there from time to time you might be able to find a website to one of them and ask. Then on A&E I think they have paranormal state they do this kind of research you can contact them and ask them to come to your home and help you get rid of the demon. They are trained to get rid of them.

What do you think the common theme is? It's not him telling me to let him go because I did. Remember he asked me "What do I do to not lose you?" Therefore the dreams I am trying to show him what not to do. I don't think he learned it yet. So he'll lose me.

[chellchell86]

the common theme is that he keeps running from you then when he realizes he did too much and your leaving he wants you back.so he wants you when it's convenient for him as long as no one else knows.he wants you as maybe a backup plan or maybe he's always wanted you but is too chicken to come forward on his own.leave him in the dust for real and thenm see what he does.you will need to blow him off kinda though.because you need to show him not to treat you that way.

[SolderLover]

the common theme is that he keeps running from you then when he realizes he did too much and your leaving he wants you back.so he wants you when it's convenient for him as long as no one else knows.he wants you as maybe a backup plan or maybe he's always wanted you but is too chicken to come forward on his own.leave him in the dust for real and thenm see what he does.you will need to blow him off kinda though.because you need to show him not to treat you that way.

He is a coward. He can't come to me alone and tell me how he feels about me he has to have his friends back him up. The problem with that is that his friends think that D wants to be mean to me and ask me out and dump me to humilate me because that is what they would do. I don't trust his friends. They are jerks.

One time he asked me out in class because his friends told him to. So I said "Yes!" and right there in front of me they started to tell D to break up with me. D had a smile on his face and he wasn't listening to them. I told him you need to break up with me now. He wouldn't so I told him it was over with. He was so hurt. But I didn't want his friends to really get him to hurt me later. They called him a dumbass for not dumping me first like they told him to. I was so humliated!!! I told him to not do it. Did he listen to me? No! My classmates all picked on me and they wanted him to join in. I told him straight from the start if he wanted me, we couldn't hang out with the kids from school because they would tease us. If he wanted to be popular he would have to give me up. He chose popularity.

[chellchell86]

i think he would've chose you,but i think he felt like you were the one pushing it away and that you were more concerned with his friends then he was.but just a thought.

[SolderLover]

i think he would've chose you,but i think he felt like you were the one pushing it away and that you were more concerned with his friends then he was.but just a thought.

You could be right on that.

But this wasn't what D foresaw. That Jessica would be so obsessive with him that she would kill me to make sure that she had him all to herself. She tried to kill me twice infront of D so that he would know that I was dead and that she would have all of his heart.

She kicked me down the stairs in my home with D there and told my sister (So she thought anyway because no one but me was home.) to not worry and that she was going to smash my brains out on the floor but not to worry it would look like an accident when she got done. I tried to tell D to not say "hi" to me or she would go crazy. What does he do say "Hi" to me and the bitch tries to kill me in my home infront of him.

The second time was in college in the Auto lab where she thought she had a tool of his but it wasn't and she cracked my head open with a cheater bar. She was smashing it into my temple which would have been an instant death but my angel told me to turn my head. She answered my thoughts out load and told me that she would have to see my brains all over the floor to make sure I was dead and she would wait to make sure that D would come into the auto lab to see me dead there with my brains on the floor.

I told him to press charges against her or I would make sure I had amnesia about him. He chose her over me. So now I have amnesia about him and I can't recognize him in fear that she will kill me again to have him.

[chellchell86]

he'll be back.watch it will be soon.

[SolderLover]

he'll be back.watch it will be soon.

Why doesn't that surprise me? With that I am scared that Jessica will be or I'll have to deal with his bitch of a mother Doreen trying to rip us apart. Why is it that there is such a strong force to keep us ripped apart?

[chellchell86]

evil has many tricks.but just keep doing whatever it is that keeps the bad away from you.

[SolderLover]

I wished it was that easy.

What I don't get or understand is why do they need to "Kill the pair of love birds?) D and I. They are so determined to keep us apart as though to keep us torn apart would end our lives. I seriously dout that it would but I know one thing for sure is if we are enternal flames there are things that would keep us apart because love is what is important to keep us being enternal flames.

[chellchell86]

people are so stupid.they should know that love is stronger than anything.and that you cant fight fate.

[SolderLover]

Yeah I know so when fate brings us together they want to rip us part. Like I said Jessica is so determined to have him she'll kill me to keep him. Sorry but he's not worth losing my life over.

[chellchell86]

she wont last with him forever.just like mike's ex girlfriend gabby took him from me.even though he always loved me.she hated me for that.and now he's come back to me.evil cant keep good away forever.i found that out.can you see anything from that girl i just told you.i think shes going to try something but what?

[SolderLover]

she wont last with him forever.just like mike's ex girlfriend gabby took him from me.even though he always loved me.she hated me for that.and now he's come back to me.evil cant keep good away forever.i found that out.can you see anything from that girl i just told you.i think shes going to try something but what?

I think she is going to tryt to go with him if she truly feels that you are out of the picture. Right now she'll try to butter him up and take care of him in his time of sorrow. She might try to get him into bed so she can rub it in your face that you lost a good man.

[SolderLover]

I was sleeping in my bed and it felt like an astral being was trying to join me. But when I opened my eyes (still dreaming) he was there and he felt so real. It was Jay. He had came to visit me from a mission and his skin was rough because of the sand. We started to make out and it felt so real that I didn't know that I was sleeping. I wanted him so bad and he wanted me because he was getting hard. He stopped me for a minute to take a breather because we were moving too fast and he wanted to take it slower.

"It feels so real! I even felt how wet your kisses are and how your skin feels! I never excepted it to feel so real that I thought that you are really here!" I said.

"Really? Does it feel more real then D being here?" he asked.

"Yeah it does! I'm so glad that it's you Jay and not D," I said to him smiling.

"Me too, you're happy about this?" he asked.

"Yes, I am so glad you came to me instead of him! D never thought that you would come to me!" I said.

"Well I did! That's what my friend Jessie doesn't like about D. D stays around because he doesn't think you'll find a soulmate!" said Jay.

"I know and that's what breaks my heart," I said.

"I know and that is what makes me so angry! Jessie says that D is playing ya!" said Jay.

"How did you get in?" I asked.

"Through the door?" said Jay.

"Was the front one unlocked?" I asked.

"No! Man I thought your dad was so going to catch me!" said Jay.

I saw Seth there and he was angry that Jay was ignoring him. Seth wanted me to have thoughts of smelling shit. He took off his shitty daiper (Seth is a 14 year old boy who died!) He tries to rub his shitty ass in Jay's face but he acts like he doesn't see it.

"Do you smell shit?" asked Jay.

"Yeah at first I thought it was you," I said.

"Yeah I got really nervous and I took a shit in your bathroom. Sorry I didn't think we would smell it in your room. I could have dribbled into my boxers," said Jay.

"I can understand why, almost getting caught by my father had to make you nervous and your stomach upset," I said as I had a vision of him trying to hide from my father. "So how did you hide from my dad?" I asked.

"In the bathroom! He thought that you must have gotten up to go. Maybe I should go wipe my ass," said Jay.

"No I think it's Seth is decaying," I said.

"Why is the music so loud? I'm surprised that no one yelled at us yet. At this time of night I can't have it any higher than two," I said as I turnned off his radio that was on and I noticed that mine was still playing. I gave Jay my nano and he found the song that he wanted to listen to and hooked it up to my nano dock player.

Jay had skittles and I was grabbing the ones that were falling and he was trying to get them away from me. I was smiling and I was truly happy.

"Hey don't you want to share with me?" I asked playfully.

"Yeah," said Jay.

"Why are there vultures outside in my yard? Did they fly in with you? Where is your team I am sure they are dressed in black hiding somewhere out there?" I said.

"They are! Yeah, sure the vultures came for the ride not sure how," said Jay.

That's where that dreams ends.






I have another dream that I went to see Jay and he is out in the desert and he's not wearing his shirt and he is full of sand. There wasa bad guy trying to keep me away from Jay and I didn't like him. He tried to have me arrested on base and I thought this was odd because I was allowed on base. So I decided to take someone I knew hostage and we role played to get away. I told him we should take a manual car. He asked me if I knew how to drive one and I did but I couldn't get it started. I got it back to where it was. I jumped into the convertible the same way that Jay would. Jay caught us. He was taking us prisioner. But he didn't do a good job of tieing up my hands because he still wanted to do me from earlier.

I untie the other hostage and we take off for it. Then there was some bad guys so we help the soldiers out. They wanted baby bugs bunny that was tied to my purse because they thought bugs has a chip hidden in him. His little diaper would cover the hole I made in him. He had nothing. I used my karate to take the bad guys out and they got arrested. They also took my camera but there was nothing on there no spy pictures like they had thought. They found some old pictures though of the ones that we arrested.

That dream ends here.

[chellchell86]

well thats a good sign.that should be a sign letting you know what is to come.the good parts not the bad.meaning you're going to see him soon.

and i had a bad dream.i saw a shadow kinda guy shaped but a little more blobby with only green eyes like highlighted.it was scarry.he was at a white picket fence i dont know if he could come through it or not.

[SolderLover]

"Yeah it does! I'm so glad that it's you Jay and not D," I said to him smiling.

"Me too, you're happy about this?" he asked.

"Yes, I am so glad you came to me instead of him! D never thought that you would come to me!" I said.

"Well I did! That's what my friend Jessie doesn't like about D. D stays around because he doesn't think you'll find a soulmate!" said Jay.

"I know and that's what breaks my heart," I said.

"I know and that is what makes me so angry! Jessie says that D is playing ya!" said Jay.

I think the gate was there to guard you because it was white and white means protection.

Yes I believe that we will see each other again. The first time that I had a dream about him he told me that the next time that I would dream about him is when I knew his name. As soon as I did that he would come to me. He told me that we would both be confindent in the dream. I was confindent.

Jay wants to know what you think about the dream, he really wants you to think about it.

[chellchell86]

wow how did you know he wants to know what i think?

well anyways i think you both will finally come together.but around that time i think thats when D will try to step in too.then you will be in the same boat as i'm in right now.

[SolderLover]

Jay speaks to me telepathically and through dreams. There is one dream that I posted on here and on the mystic forum that he walked me through what happened. He's the guy that came into my work place.

He figured that's when D will come into play but he wants to know if D is really playing me?

That's what caught me by surprise in the dream about what he said that his friend Jessie had said about D.

[SolderLover]

I had this dream a few months ago. But it predicts this dream that I just had. So I will start there.

I was walking towards a dorm room and a man was coming out. I knew that I was going to be going into that dorm room and I could hear two men arguing. As I was walking closer to it.


“Dating? When, where, how?” I asked.

“I’ve been in the army,” said Jake.

“I can see that,” I said.

“Wanna make out again?” asked Jake.


“I understand. We need to talk anyway,” said Jake.

“About?” I asked nervous.

“Why you don’t remember me, I know some of it’s bro’s fault because he has been chasing after you so I am not upset with you,” said Jake.

“Oh boy,” I said.

“Let’s talk about something else. Have you ever felt used?” asked Jake.

“Yeah I’ve been abused,” I said.

“I’ve been used for dates and stuff because I’m so hot. You know to get into clubs and to get back at ex‘s. You‘re pretty has that happened to you?” said Jake.

“How sad. Really you think I’m pretty?” I asked.

“Yeah,” said Jake.

“Thanks. You’re………..” I started as I wanted to say hot but didn’t want to upset him

“Just say it, I know you’re not like them,” said Jake.

“Hot,” I said.

“Really?“ asked Jake.

“Yeah,“ I said.

“You don’t think I’m conceited?” asked Jake.

“No, not at all. I can see why some people would think that because you’re so hot but you’re really sweet,” I said.

“Thanks, you’re a sweetheart,” said Jake.

“Thanks only one guy said that to me before,” I said.

“Really that’s sad because you really are a sweetheart,” said Jake.

“Thanks,” I said.

“So do you ever get used for money? I do girls tell me to take them on dates and to pay for them because I’m hot, and I look like I have money,” said Jake.

“Why because you like to dress nice?” I asked.

“Yeah, I wear a lot of sweaters,” said Jake.

“So that doesn’t mean you have money,” I said.

“I know, what about you?” asked Jake.

“Yeah it’s like I am paying a guy to be with me because I’m not that pretty and they know it. It’s like they know I can’t find anyone better then them. That’s fine I’m not scared of being alone once school is done, I’m going to move,” I said.

“That doesn’t sound right. Sounds like you’re being abused,” said Jake.

“I am that’s why I want to leave,” I said.

“I hope I get to meet you before you leave,” said Jake.

“Me too,” I said.


“Ok I’ll watch the time. So do you have any tattoos,” asked Jake.

“Yeah three on my back, I can see you have some tattoos,” I said.

“Yeah,” said Jake as I looked at them as I really liked the little critter and his girlfriend.

“I like the cute critters, this one looks like you? The girl must be his g/f. They look like a cute couple,” I said.

“Are they? I don’t remember getting that tattoo. I was drunk and some girl was looking at the cute critters and she wanted to get them the next thing I remember was waking up and I had them,” said Jake as he smiled at me looking to me as though I was suppose to remember this conversation.

“So what do you have?” asked Jake.

“A blue rose on one shoulder, blue is my favorite color and I didn’t really want to have red it’s so common,” I said.

“I know,” said Jake.

“Blue is rather common now. A unicorn because I like to think that I am unique and mystical and the triquetrous because I like what it means not because it’s on charmed but I love watching charmed,” I said.

“Me too!” said Jake.

“Really, not many men like watching it,” I said.

“I know my bro said it was more his kind of show then mine. It’s getting close for you to go but I really need to tell you something,” said Jake.

“Ok,” I said.

“I hope it don’t freak you out, I‘m psychic,” said Jake.

“It won’t I am too, what is it,” I said.

“You’ll dream of me again when you remember who I am. You’ll start making out with me first this time,” said Jake.

“Really, I guess I’ll know you by then so that could happen,” I said.

“You will. I’ll get nervous and start rambling and you’ll kiss me to shut me up,” said Jake.

“That doesn’t sound like you, you seem confident, it’s like we’ll change roles,” I said.

“I do ramble when I get nervous or when I’m drunk,” said Jake.

“I guess that can happen, but I promise you won’t have anything to be nervous about,” I said.

“I know that. We don’t have much time so let me finish. You and your astral will start changing at the same time and sometimes that freaks me out so don’t get upset if I walk away. Please follow me to my bedroom. I’ll show you my bedroom. Not now.” Jake said as though he knew I would get up. “We’ll start getting hot and heavy and we won’t have enough time to go all the way just get started,” said Jake.

“Damn I hate it when that happens,” I said,

“Me too, now I will show you to my room,” said Jake as we both got up and went to his room. It looked like he was sharing it with a roommate. One bed was made the other wasn’t but looked slept in. There was coloring books on the floor with crayons and clothing everywhere. Jake seemed embarrassed as he tried to pick up just a little bit.

“We don’t have much time,” said Jake as he got close to me and I realized how tall he was.

“Wow you’re….” I asked to say.

“Tall,” said Jake.

“Yeah,” I said.

“Remember this,” said Jake as he got down on his knees as he looked up at me as I loved the way that he looked at me “I sometimes do this because I am so tall and you’re short or I pick you up.” said Jake.

I seemed to recognize what he was doing but I couldn’t remember as he held my hand and pulled me down onto the floor as I was sitting on him and we were rocking gently as I was getting turned on and he pulled me down towards his face as he brushed my hair out of my face as his lips brushed mine and I gasped.

“What about this? I think you do remember,” said Jake.

“Yeah me too, sorry I got to go now,” I said.

“I promise when you remember who I am we’ll start dating,” said Jake.

“I wished that we could start now, I don’t have much school left,” I said.

“Me too but I promise it will be soon,” said Jake.

“I hope you’re right because I think you might be waiting for awhile, right now I don’t remember or dream much it could be months,” I said.

“You’re worth the wait, I promise soon. I‘ll know what time you get up and what class you have,” said Jake.

“Before school ends?” I asked.

“Yeah, The next time you see me I will be in a moving van and you'll be keeping me up,” said Jake.

“I got to go now or I’ll be late,” I said.

“I know, go!” said Jake.





Now this is the dream that I had last night that Jake predicted!!!!

I came into the dorm room. This time I wasn’t nervous as I went over to Jake and got on his lap and started to make out with him. His shirt seemed to be giving me some trouble as he helped me take his button up shirt off. I couldn’t help touching his chest as I kissed him.

I started to look at his tattoos at I was looking for certain ones. There was the guy animal critter that I thought was really cute that looked like Jake but I didn’t see the girl. I think that was the one that I wanted to get. Then I looked for the cross.

“The other arm, let me help you,” said Jake as I looked at his right bicep for the tattoo.

“Bro what is she looking for,” asked Scott.

“Certain tattoos and trust me she knows which ones they are look at her, yeah about that one, I was really drunk and some girl thought the critter was cute………..” started Jake as I started to kiss him again to shut him up because I really liked the animal critter and I wanted him.

I looked at Jake as I smiled. “I know that’s a wig,” I said.

“And what else,” said Jake.

“Are those contacts?” I asked.

“Yeah,” said Jake. I really liked his contacts I knew they were the blue ones and his eyes were so beautiful. “Like them?” asked Jake.

“Yeah, I do,” I said.

“I knew you would,” said Jake.

Like he said my astral started changing and there was two sets of my clothes on the floor and it was even freaking me out as I was on the floor getting undressed. I was in my pajamas and I saw them on the floor as I was in red panties. I saw my belt on the floor two of them, two pairs of socks and two pairs of pants.

“I know I’m dreaming, I am pretty sure I am in my bed,” I said.

“Yeah I am sure you are too. Let’s go to my room,” said Jake as he is going to his bedroom.

“We don’t have a lot of time, I got to go in ten minutes I can’t be late to Steve’s class.” I said as I noticed that it was 10 minutes to seven and I would have to get up.

“I know,” said Jake.

I got up and followed him as that freaked me out too so I could see why he was freaked out by it. He closed the door and it was like from the dream before as I smiled as my face was in his chest.

“I got an idea, can you get down on your knees?” I asked.

He got down as I kissed him. He looked up at me as I looked down at him resting my arms around his neck. I loved the way he looked up at me adoringly. His beautiful big eyes as he smiled softly at me. I leaned down and kissed him as he laid on his back and I climbed onto him in the same position as the last dream.

He started his gentle rocking as I leaned down and started to kiss him. I was getting turned on and so was he. I brushed his upper lip with mine and I knew he liked it as I looked down at him.
“Babie I really love it when you do that, do it again,” said Jake.

I was going to do it again but the alarm went off.

Dream: Jay
I was being carried by a man and he was taking me to his bedroom he knew that I liked to fly but I didn't want anyone to know that I was flying. He took me in through his window like Edward would just appear in her room in the movie Twlight. He was upset that he saw a little girl sleeping in his bed and I decided to leave. He catches me and brings me back to his room again. He was packing to leave. He had to pick up the girl and make her leave again. He moved with lightening speed. He came back to me and squaded by his bed he was crying. I think he was asking me if he should come home. I was lying on his bed in a T-shirt and I wanted him to come to me and he told me that he would that he was hurrying. He promised that he would come to me. He was wondering why I was seeing his brother and why was I dressed the way his brother would dress me in his work shirt. I was confused to who I was seeing. This made Jay cry. (Now I know it's because I thought that Jay and D look like twins and I have amnesia about D) My face was flushed and I didn't really know why. I thought that he wanted me but he continued to pack the glasses that he was wrapping in packing paper. He told me that I was a pack rat and that I taught him how to pack. I left because I had gotten woken up. Then I went back to sleep and Jake did the flying thing again and I loved it. He was carrying me in his arms and he let me see him anytime that I asked. He told me that he wouldn't hide from me. Then he carried me to the bathroom and started the shower telling me that I needed to get up and shower and he would watch me shower like he always does sitting on the toliet so we could talk. He told me that he knew what my favorite part of twilight was and it was me being spider monkey. He told me that I needed to get up and shower that I was sleeping too long and if I slept any longer then I wouldn't be able to shower before work. The bathroom had a tub in it like my apartment had.


What Came True!
He was right. My alarm went off and I had just enough time to shower. He knew that I was depressed. He also went to the late showing of Twlight on December 31st.





Dream: Jay
I was talking with a man and I couldn't see his face but I remembered his voice. He told me that he was coming into the Dollar Tree and that he would buy the two things that we liked to eat at the Dollar Tree while I was on break. This freaked me out but then I thought maybe we have a psychic connection. They were Cheese Ums and Welchs Strawberry fruit snacks. He likes to make out with his fruit snacks because he misses me and he thinks that one of the fruit snacks is me and the other is him. I started to play with mine in the same way after this dream. Then he told me that he wouldn't be dressed for the weather that he would be wearing something that I loved seeing on him and that Amanda would be working in back with the chemicals. It was a blue windbreaker from another dream that I had months before this and I really did love seeing that on him in that dream when he was trying to give me my coat because it was raining out. I went AWOL on him and it was because someone found that shouldn't have. Nick and some older guy or it was Scott not sure which but they were not suppose to find us. I would act like I have seen a ghost but I wouldn't have time to go get her and talk to her because he would already know where the things were. He asked me how I would remember him if I didn't see his face and I told him that I would recognize his voice. He asked how would we prove to each other this is real and I said we would have to say something to each other telepathically then tell each other outloud.



What Came True!
He did come into the Dollar tree wearing a Blue windbreaker that he wore in a previous dream. It was the dream where he was trying to find me out in the rain and get me to wear my jacket because if I got wet I would get sick. He's really tall like the guy in my dreams. 6'7. He did get our two favorite things to eat Cheese Ums and fruit snacks the strawberry welch's ones. Amanda really was working in chemicals and he wasn't there long. It was cold out too cold for a wind breaker and I did regonize his voice even though I heard it once on the phone. He said "Hi" to me after I told him telepathically to say something out loud "Say Hi or something," so he said "Hi," out loud. I didn't think that was enough to prove that we were telepathic and I should have had him say something else. I really did act like I have seen a ghost. I didn't do my normal cashier routine because I thought that he was D. I know now that he wasn't, he didn't have the scar that D has.

Jay



I was sleeping in my bed and it felt like an astral being was trying to join me. But when I opened my eyes (still dreaming) he was there and he felt so real. It was Jay. He had came to visit me from a mission and his skin was rough because of the sand. We started to make out and it felt so real that I didn't know that I was sleeping. I wanted him so bad and he wanted me because he was getting hard. He stopped me for a minute to take a breather because we were moving too fast and he wanted to take it slower.

"It feels so real! I even felt how wet your kisses are and how your skin feels! I never excepted it to feel so real that I thought that you are really here!" I said.

"Really? Does it feel more real then D being here?" he asked.

"Yeah it does! I'm so glad that it's you Jay and not D," I said to him smiling.

"Me too, you're happy about this?" he asked.

"Yes, I am so glad you came to me instead of him! D never thought that you would come to me!" I said.

"Well I did! That's what my friend Jessie doesn't like about D. D stays around because he doesn't think you'll find a soulmate!" said Jay.

"I know and that's what breaks my heart," I said.

"I know and that is what makes me so angry! Jessie says that D is playing ya!" said Jay.

"How did you get in?" I asked.

"Through the door?" said Jay.

"Was the front one unlocked?" I asked.

"No! Man I thought your dad was so going to catch me!" said Jay.

[chellchell86]

i think that all your dreams point to the same answers.and i guess it's time for you to really move on from D.besides if for some reason he is meant to be with you,then it will happen.but dont stress about it.because soon your love life will come about and you will have more than your share of love triangles,lol.

[SolderLover]

I really don't want a love triangle. I am happy just to have Jay at this point. He is willing to come to me and D is not. Jay is willing to show me that I am psychic and talk about those things and he knows how to appoarch me on them. Even though D has shown me that I am psychic I felt embrassed that my teacher caught me writing his notes from his class on my paper instead of my own notes and I had to go down to the auto lab to get my notes. I was so read in the face. D doesn't know how to appoarch me on these things. Also what his mother tried to do to me I can't forgive him for. She tried to lock me in jail for stalking him when he was stalking me. I can't forgive D for choosing Jessica over me. D asked how not to loose me and I told him to get an Order of Protection against Jessica and to help me turn her in for trying to murder me. He didn't want to lock her up and still dated her after she tried to kill me in school. He has no respect for me or my life.

[chellchell86]

someone new might come in

[SolderLover]

I don't think anyone can tear me apart from Jay. I know my friend Aaron might try but he will not succeed.

[SolderLover]

Jake, Scott and I were in another state living together. We were living in a community that accept gay and bi people because Scott was bi. I was working and Scott came up to visit. I was making up some of the drag queens inbewteen oil changes. It was one of the most busiest days that we had in awhile.

We all got together to do something unoffical. We set up a time that we were going to walk down our street. Jake isn't bi nor a drag queen but since I was going to dress up as a man and his bro as a woman he decided to be a woman.

"I don't know, I'm going to be too tall for a woman," said Jake.

I don't know if there was ever a 6'7 woman but today there was.

"So bro, they don't care here, you'll be fine trust me!" said Scott (Aka Jackie)

Jackie and I got each other dressed up then we helped bro. We had gone shoping and decided to put in some sex girl jeans that we got at Tall Girl and a nice shirt because he didn't want to shave his legs. But they didn't have anything to fit him.

So we had to go to a place that sold things for Drag Queens. The man that was helping us at Tall Girl called a head so we could get the jeans that he knew Jake would look good in.

Jackie and I helped Jake get ready. Jackie knew how to powder really well because she got a five o'clock shadow but Jake didn't really need so much powder because his face is so smooth when he shaves because his hair is fine.

When we were done and he had the blonde wig on he looked so beautiful. I was a fat man because I was pregnant so I couldn't pull off the skinny hot guy. Jackie was a full figured woman.

We met where we all agreed and paraded down the street. There was a lot of woman today. One of them asked Jackie about his bracelet as I had a flash back of us all getting together to make them. We all went to a craft store to get the beads.

Jackie couldn't decide on the beads that she wanted and got quite a few. Jake and I didn't get so many but we all agreed together on three charms. An Army charm, Breast Cancer bow charm, and a motorcycle charm. We got the beads and went to Jakes to make them.

We made them before we moved because I was still in school and we couldn't move yet. We sat at the table and we all helped each other make them. I got one with Jake's name, Jake had one with my nick Babie and bro had one that said We Luv Bro.

Jackie got so many charms that he was upset he wanted to use them all on one bracelet but couldn't. So I told him to make another bracelet. He loved to wear bracelets that clinged when he went clubbing so he made a charm bracelet for the club.

That day he was wearing We Luv Bro! Bracelet that he loved so much that he never took it off. I was wearing mine and Jake was wearing his. The woman realized that it was a custom made charm bracelet. Bro was going to be our live in nanny.

They figured out this time that I was a pregnant woman. They wouldn't stop rubbing my belly and hitting on Jake because he was so hot. Jackie was just gapping away. Then after the parade was done we went home. Jackie was talking about some guy he thought was hot.

As Jake was rubbing my belly because Jadien was kicking. Bro came over because he loved feeling Jadien kick.

[SolderLover]

Then I had another dream where I went in for a surgery and I had amnesia and Jake was upset about it but he had to make sure that I trust him because he will be taking me home. So when he came into the hospital I didn't remember that he was my husband and he was ready for that because the doctor told him that it could happen. I was pregnant and really pregnant. I agreed to Jay taking me home and there was another man there a friend. I was more scared of him then Jay. I was asking Jay why didn't I remember getting pregnant and I should have remembered it. I was crying and Jay told me that it would take time and that I would remember how I got pregnant and that I knew I was and I would do things that the baby liked.

He started to teach me how the baby liked me to rub my belly when he kicked. He told me that he knew how I liked to be made love to. Since we were in the bedroom he asked me to trust him and I did. He laid me on the bed all dressed because he didn't want to frighten me and he showed me my favorite position and asked me if I remembered. I cried and I remembered him being the one. Then his buddy came in and I was still frighten and he asked if he could lie on the bed. Jay told me it was ok that I could trust him. He touched my belly and rubbed it and talked to the baby. He told Jay that I wasn't ready to know yet and I was confused. I asked Jay what was this all about. Then the dream ended.

I am sure Jay is straight and this really wouldn't happen. But I still think the amnesia if I do have this surgery which I might need one day because I had another dream that I was pregnant again with a boy. In that one I had seizures. In that dream too I didn't remember Jay or the other blonde that I thought was D.

[SolderLover]

Then this dream was just weird. Santa came to pick me up and I know I am too old to believe in santa. I gave ruddoff a hug because I feel like I am like ruddoff. I wanted him to know that santa was happy about his red nose leading the way. Santa gave me a hand knitted white blanket to cover up with and it was so soft as I sat behind santa. I fell asleep and woke up just a little bit to a man covering me up then I passed out again. I didn't wake up until I was in my bed.

I don't know if this means that someone wants me to be with them on Christmas?

[SolderLover]

I was sent home from the army after having a seizure during an interogation. I met a man that was visiting family and was kind of on a business trip. (I believe that I know his brother in the army.) Anyway we get together and we do it one night (they really look alike) and then he is gone. I end up pregnant but I don't find out until I ended up in the hospital after me and an ex get into it.

I had to tell the hospital that I thought I was pregnant but I wasn't sure. They did a pregnancy test and it was indeed positive. Then they decided to do a blood test to comfirm why I was having the siezures. I was sent to Anna's because my parent didn't want to take the responsiblity for me and they didn't want my ex finding me.

They wanted me to have a working dog immediately and brought me to a place that had one. I didn't know that the man owned his own shop but Anna's found a job out where my mother lives since she decided to take me in. He was coming to meet me today. I saw a tall blonde and I believed that I knew who he was but I couldn't remember him.

He was talking to a woman in a wheelchair and he said that he just found out that his wife had epilepsy. I follow him in and the lady from Anna's was upset that they hadn't put me down for an appointment and she had to pull some strings. He was talking to someone at the front desk telling them that he needed a working dog for his wife. They wanted to make sure that she had epilepsy.

The lady from Anna's came in and told them that I was pregnant with epilepsy as the man let's me hold the yellow lab pup that he picked out. The lady looked at him and he smiled and said quietly "I wanted to surprise her, I haven't had time to propose yet,"

The lady from Anna's had my paper work faxed over and the other lady at the desk said "So she's pregnant and has epilepsy,"

The lady that is talking with the tall blonde looks at him a bit strangely.

Suzan said "We need a medical bracelet, that one will due," she said pointing at one.

"I think she should pick it out," said Heather.

"We don't have time, it looks like she picked her pup already," said Suzan.

"Any bracelet that you can add charms to will work," I said as I petted the pup.

"Can I pick one out," asked J.

"Sure then I can ask her what she thinks," said Heather

"This one, it looks like you can add charms to it," said J as he pointed to one.

She smiled "That's my favorite, its also the most popular with the ladies," said Heather as she took the bracelet board with her.

“Aren’t you the guy that is going to hire her?” asked Suzan.

“Yeah, you’re not being very nice to her. I can take her home if time is really an issue,” said J.

“She’s in my care I can’t just let anyone take her home,” said Suzan.

“I am from Anna Maries I can drive her home. Are you able to take her down here every day until the pup is trained?” asked the Anna Marie representative.

“No,” said Suzan.

“Can she get transferred we have room for her I have another in the program that she can come with here,” said Sara.

“Fine I will get the paper work and her bag out of the car. Are you going to be able to drive her to her court hearings,” said Suzan.

“Yes, I want to know all about her case and we will make sure she gets a good lawyer. She’ll be safer at our location. J where are you staying?” said Sara.

“In a hotel,” said J.

“For how long,” asked Sara.

“A day,” he said.

“Maybe we can if we can do something about that. Are you coming back to get her when her hearing is done?” asked Sara.

“I could I am going to be her employer,” said J.

“Its so nice to hear about people like you helping out our Anna women. Is that dog going be ok in your shop?” asked Sara.

“Yeah I picked her out,” said J.

“How long can you stay here?” asked Sara.

“How long do you need me here?” asked J.

“We should train the dog with you two months?” asked Sara.

“That’s a bit long,” said J.

“I figured that, well see how long you can stay and we will work with you. I can’t wait to get your full file,” said Sara.

“Hon do you like this bracelet?” asked Heather.

“Yeah, that one looks nice,” I said.

“What a sweetheart,” said Heather.

“Heather don’t let the pregnant dog get near her,” said J.

“She hasn’t gotten up all day and she only likes pregnant ladies, the owners should be here shortly,” said Heather.

The pregnant dog came over to me panting heavily as she looked like she was getting ready to give birth. She sat next to me and looked like my dog Cuddles that I had to give up because family wouldn’t take her. Both the dogs made a noise as they all watched me. They laid on me.
“Lye her down,” said Heather.

“She’s fine,” said Suzan.

“The dogs know that she is going to have a seizure,” said Heather.

My right arm started shaking.

“Let’s move her,” said Heather.

“Can I carry her?” asked J.

“Normally we put them in a wheelchair,” said Heather.

“How far are you going?” asked J.

“To that room right over there?” said Heather.

“She’s light and it’s not that far. Here take the pup,” said J.

J picks me up and they take me to a more private room with a couch. I sat on the couch as Heather brought me something to drink. Sara came in with my overnight bag and my medical file. She sat down next to me.

“Do you want to help me get your things later tonight?” asked Sara.

“Yea,” I said.

“J do you mind coming with, it might take more than me to get her things,” said Sara.

“Sure, I have some things I want to say about Suzan,” said J.

“I’ll talk to you about that privately,” said Sara.

The pregnant dog came into the room and laid at my feet. The dog that I was holding reminded me of Precious the other dog that I had to give up. This one was a yellow lab pure bred not a black lab mix. J wanted to talk to me alone but they had to monitor me and teach the pup things.

“Do you have a name for the pup?” asked J.

“Precious,” I said.

“Precious huh,” said J.

“Yeah because she is so precious,” I said smiling.

“Just like you,” said J.

Soon Sara had to take us to my home town to get my things from Anna’s. We followed J to his hotel room and she asked him how long he could say “A week maybe two at most,” said J.

She agreed to say a few days in the hotel room next to us. She paid for a week for him. We all got into her car and we drove up to my home town. J was shocked at how little I had at Anna’s. I didn’t want to take a lot. Most of it I didn’t need or I could replace.

We drove back to the hotel where I stayed with J. I trained with my pup every day and the pregnant dog always stayed with us until she had her pups. I asked what happened to the pregnant dog and they said that she died after giving birth to last pup. They brought the last pup to me and I so wanted to have that last pup.

“What should we name this pup?” asked Heather.

“Cuddles,” I said.

“Cuddles it is, she loves to cuddle,” said Heather “Here hold her a bit,”

“My bro really wants a cocker,” said J.

“Well are you going to get her spayed?” asked Heather.

“If we have to,” said J.

“No you don’t,” said Heather “We can just tell the owners that this one didn’t make it. Do you want to feed her?” asked Heather.

“Sure,” I said.

“Are you going to take her home with you J?” asked Heather.

“Can I?” asked J.

“Yes you have to get her all her shots. She’s without a mother so we will supply you with the equipment that you need,” said Heather.

“Can she travel in a car?” asked J.

“Yes, we’ll get you a kennel for her,” said Heather.

“Ok I will, I’ll have to come back for Precious,” said J.

J had to go home and Sara was getting me ready for the trail. My mother was still brought in because I would be going to live with her until I could find a place that would allow me to live there with epilepsy. J gave me a kiss on the cheek but I believed that he wanted to kiss me on the mouth. He looked so painfully sad. He left the room because he had to make his flight.

“Go back in there and give her a real kiss,” said Heather.

All the women and even some of the men liked the way that J treated me. J and I haven’t really seen each other in a long time and I felt like he thought that I had forgotten about him or things between us had changed.

“A real kiss,” said J.

“Yeah, we all know you love her. You show it all the time in the way that you always take care of her and making sure she gets the best care and the best pup in the batch,” said Heather.

“Yeah I do love her, but sometimes I don’t think she knows how much,” said J as he sighed.

“I think she knows, she’s just too scared to make a move. Look at what happened to her…..” said Heather.

“You’re right her ex almost killed her. I’ll give her a real kiss but just to warn ya when my bro comes here he’ll be all over her,” said J.
“Must be a twin,” said Heather.

J came back in and pulled me onto his lap. “Honey, I have to go now. I’ll see you when I come back to get Precious,” said J. He gently placed his hand on my cheek and pulled me closer to him and gave me a kiss on the mouth. I hesitated for a second because I wasn’t expecting it but I really wanted to kiss him. He sensed my hesitation and pulled away,

“I got to go I’ll be late for my flight,” said J.

He sat down on the couch again and got up to leave. I could tell that there was tears in his eyes. Before he walked out the door as he held it open he looked back at me then whispered “I love you,” he didn’t notice that Heather was right there with a cocker pup.

“Why not tell her?” asked Heather.

“Too soon,” said J as he walked by her and left.

I felt so bad that I thought “Do I always make you so sad?”

I thought he said out loud “No you make me very happy, what happened to you is what makes me sad. I wished I could have saved you sooner,” said J.

“You didn’t know, don’t go blaming you for what my ex did to me,” I said.

Heather gave me Cuddles and her bottle and I fed Cuddles. I don’t remember how much time had past but J came back into the room but he didn’t look like J completely.

“I thought you had a flight to catch,” I said.

“Yeah I had a nice flight in,” said J’s bro.

“How’s your car going to make it home?” I asked.

“I’m going to drive it,” said J’s bro.

“You must be J’s twin Jonesy,” I said.

“How can you tell the difference?” asked Jonesy.

“Get a little bit closer,” I said he did as he sat down next to me on the couch.

I took a look at Jonesy and I noticed that he didn’t look completely like J even though they were dressed to a T to look a like. “You don’t look like identical twins,” I said.

“You could always tell us apart,” said Jonesy as he picked up Cuddles “So you’re the puppy that I am driving home, too young to fly huh,” said Jonesy.

“She can’t fly in coach and the cargo bay isn’t pressurized, it would hurt her delicate ears,” I said.

“She’ll cry all the way home on the plane,” said Jonesy.

“I hope she don’t cry all the way home on the drive,” I said.

“Cuddles never traveled well did she?” asked Jonesy.

“No, maybe she’ll be too young to cry all the way home. Drive with the hood down,” I said.

“Maybe the fresh air will help her,” said Jonesy.

“Don’t let her get cold and make sure it don’t get too windy for her,” I said.

“I promise I’ll take good care of her. Do you think that I am leaving right away?” asked Jonesy.

“It’ll be awhile before I go to trail,” I said.

“I can get you a better lawyer,” said Jonesy.

“Can you? They want to take my baby away and they won’t let me live alone,” I said.

“Why?” asked Jonesy.

“Because I have epilepsy. Lorrie wants my baby because she is hoping that it’s a girl and she doesn’t believe that her son did this to me. They think that I did it to myself. Why didn’t he get me hospital care for then?” I asked as I cried.

“Because he is an abuser,” said Jonesy.

“I don’t think they believe me! They believe him and if my family testifies they’ll take Sgt. W side and put me away!” I cried.

“I sorry but you’ll have to leave now,” said Heather as Jonesy got up and walked towards the door.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to upset her,” said Jonesy.

“What did you say to her?” demanded Heather once he got outside the door.

“I just told her I could get her a better lawyer, I want to help her,” said Jonesy.

“Can you?” asked Heather.

“Oh yeah,” said Jonesy.

“Good please don’t talk about the trial right now,” said Heather.

“She needs to know that people believe her,” said Jonesy.

“True but the poor thing has been through so much,” said Rebecca.

“Alright I will find something else to talk about and let the lawyer handle that,” said Jonesy.

“Ok,” said Heather.

Jonesy came back into the room and held Cuddles while Precious and I worked together so she knew how to help me. Jonesy agreed to staying for a week in a hotel and traveling back and forth for work. Sara wanted to make sure that he knew how to take care of me and that I would be safe moving out where his brother and him lived.

Jonesy got me a good lawyer and we talked. There was quite a few witnesses but when we had a meeting with the lawyers and judge he didn’t like the way that Lorrie treated me.

“I want custody of that girl she is carrying,” said Lorrie.

“She is perfectly capable of taking care of herself and that child. She is not suicidal nor do we believe that she gave herself those head injuries deliberately. Now that she is on medication she is not hearing the voices that some people with epilepsy hear,” said the lawyer.

“I told them to not let anyone know the sex of the baby. Isn‘t that a violation of the HIPPA law?” I cried.

“If it was a boy you would have aborted it already!” Yelled Lorrie.

“No I wouldn’t have, its not your son’s baby!” I cried.

“I want an DNA test to prove that!” yelled Lorrie.

“We talked to the doctors and with her epilepsy they will not do an DNA test until the baby is born. However we did give her a lie detector test and she passed and the child is not Sgt. W,. If Lorrie still persists that one is needed we will do one after the child is born and mail her the results,” said the lawyer.

“Fine,” said Lorrie.

The Judge came back with the verdict and Sgt. W was sentenced to serve some time for neglecting my medical care due to my epilepsy and identity fraud he also got it for domestic violence. I was awarded full custody of my child.

Lorrie was angry as all hell and the lawyer was concerned about me. We went into private quarters with the judge where my lawyer told him that he wanted to put me in the witness protection services and he wanted to be able to fake my death. He told him that he was scared for my safety because he believed that Lorrie would come after me to find the kid and that he was worried that Sgt. W could get out early and come after me.

“Do whatever you need to do to keep her safe, I will sign all the paper work,” said the Judge.

“Jonesy is an explosive expert, we can fake her death right now,” said the lawyer.

“Do it,” said the judge.

Jonesy set it all up and I walked out to the car. They made sure that the Emergency Medical Technicians were ready and Yettee was there. I walked out to the car and Jonesy went with me because he would have to drive. Jonesy put the key in the door and turned it and opened the door.

“There is a bomb on that car!” yelled a witness.

“Run!” yelled Jonesy.

We ran but the explosion still got Jonesy and I. I went to the hospital where they wrote up a report saying that my child was a still born and I died during child birth. I was given a new name that day and we were flying out as soon as I recovered from my minor injuries.

[SolderLover]

Then I had this dream I think it was before the one posted in pink.

I had gone to get the puppy because I was really pregnant and I was having seizures. There was two men there one was Jay and the other looked like Jay so I thought that he was a twin. I didn't remember Jay at all even though he asked me if I remembered him. He was wearing his tan sweater and blue jeans. He promised me when we spent more time together that I would remember him. I get the dog and he flies out with me when they clear me for travel.

He was talking to my social worker and he was working also with my mother in WV but I wasn't going to WV I was going to NC to be with Jay and live in an assistant living apartment. Jay sat in first class while I sat in coach. My mother was with me for the flight. I lived at her home until I could move into my apartment. It was hard because she and her husband would have to drive me home or drop me off at work. Jay started to come home with me and eat dinner at our place.

My mother was telling me that he was a nice man and that I should go for him because it was hard to find a good man to take care of you when you were pregnant with someone else's child. I knew that the child that I was pregnant with came from a man that looked like Jay but since he was from NC I never put the two and two together that he could have seen me on a business trip. I move into the apartment and my mother was trying to get me to move back home.

Jay had talked to them and asked if I would be willing to live with him instead of moving into my new apartment. My mother agreed that she would feel safer letting me go to NC if I was living with Jay. So I move in with Jay.

The guys got me a bigger work shirt because I popped that day. And there was a mean lady complaining about how my dog got dirty. Jay wasn't working as manager that day it was his twin brother (so I thought.) He told the old lady that he would give my dog a bath. She told him that I shouldn't be working there with a pregnant belly and having seizures. It made him angry and he told her to not come back after we finished changing her oil. He tried to tell her that they were trained to handle me when I had seizures but she wouldn't listen.

My dog comes to my side after he washed the oil out of her fur. I was going to have a seizure and she whimpered and lies down. The guys came over to me and laid me down on a mat. They called the ambulance and it came to get me. The old lady was still complaining and she went to get her medical dog and tried to tell me that it was important that I just get on MA and let them pay for my living.

I told her that I was but I wanted to work that I couldn’t be like her and just stay home all day. They told me to the hospital and even though I wasn’t scheduled for an ultra sound they gave me one and now I was far enough along to know the sex so I asked them to take pictures and they did.
My doctor did my check up at the hospital instead of having me come to his office later that week. Jay came to get me from the hospital. When we got home I handed him the envelope. He was asking me what was in it. He didn’t think that it was my sonogram pictures because that was suppose to be at the end of the week.
I got myself a glass of water in a plastic tumbler because I didn’t want to break the glass ones. I started to sip my water and then I dropped the glass. I said ops. I dropped a towel on the floor and my dog brings her rope chew toy over to me. I told her to sit on the towel and we play tug a war to clean the floor.
Jay told me to not worry about the water that he would clean it up as he set down the envelope. I told him that I was good. That I got the mess covered.
He came over anyway and saw me playing tug a war with precious. He grabs the glass and he notices how big that I had gotten. He looked at me with adoring eyes like he wanted to kiss me.
I didn’t noticed that you were that big. I told him I wasn’t I just popped today. He was explaining from that angle that I looked bigger. I also had my hand on my hip. He gets up and he kisses me. He gets me another glass of water as I was playing with my dog still cleaning up the mess.
His brother comes home and he picks up the pictures. He asked “What are these sonograms pictures. Did you see these yet Jay?”
“No I was just about to look at them when she dropped her water. Did you know that her dog helps her clean up the mess playing tug a war. That’s so cute.” Said Jay.
“Yeah that’s how precious gets oil on her tail when she has to clean up an oil spill,” said his bro.
“I need to spend more time in the shop starting this week,” said Jay.
“Girl or boy one bark girl two barks boy,” I said.
Jay throws her toy into the living room. He notices that I got all the mess and picks up the towel. Then he picks me up with my glass in hand. Precious goes over to his brother and barks.
“Precious says it’s a girl,” said his bro.
“Ask her again!” I said.
“Girl or boy?” asked the bro.
Precious barks two barks this time. “Boy huh well I think it’ll be a girl,” said his bro “What about you Jay?”
“I guess you already know sweetheart,” said Jay.
“No I told him not to tell me but to take pictures and write it down on the paper if it was a girl or boy. I am going to agree with precious boy,” I said.

“That’s cheating Jay you were suppose to guess first because you’ll agree with your wife it’s a boy,” said his bro “Did I just let that slip, ops,”
“Yeah ops,” said Jay.
“I thought you already asked her in there you were down on your knee, I think I jumped the gun,” said bro.
“Thanks now she won’t be surprised,” said Jay.
“Precious tell Jay I will still be surprised,” I said.
We all looked at the pictures and we all knew I was having a boy. Jay makes a special dinner and the bro goes out for a little bit. Jay brings me to the bedroom and proposes and we make love.

[SolderLover]

There are questions that has bugged me that no one has really answered before.

Will I get pregnant?

Will it be a boy?

Will I have seizures when I am pregnant and have to get a seizure dog?

Will I get amnesia about Jay again?

[SolderLover]

Before I went to bed I asked Jay if I could dream about him telepathically and he answered!!!!!

Jay astraled to my bedroom and it felt so real. This time without him feeling that he was in the desert all day. I was getting fristy and he knew it. We started kissing each other then we started to take each other's clothes off. I started to get amnesia again and Jay told me not to worry to not get scared that it was him. So I calmed down and we kept making out. He was turning me on and he was naked then I was helping him get me naked. We hid under the clovers because people were coming into my room but we didn't want to stop having sex so we hid from them.

Jay was right from the night before it takes a bit for him to get hard and he kept his dick soft. I was trying to get him hard and he told me "You know me making you wet is what gets me hard!"

"Finger me!" I said excitedly to Jay.

"Alright!" said Jay.

He started to get me really wet and it was feeling all so good. Then he was looking at me and he was making love to me. I felt him stimulating my clit with a vibator and I was really getting wet. He smiled as he knew he had me right where he wanted me. Then he stopped moving because he came but I was still cumming so he kissed me. He loves it when I moan against his lips. When we were doing he kissed me again and I could see how much he loved me.

Then we left my house and we ended up at the hospital. Why I am not sure but I wanted to do him again. So we found a room where there was no one but we got interrupted. So we found another room and people kept coming in on us so we hid under a bed and put one blanket on the floor and pulled another one over us to finish what we started before. But before we could do that the dream changes and I am trying to find Jay again. I was in the desert and I was looking for Jay.

"Jay I'm giving you a day to come to me then I'm moving on!" I said telepathically.

Then I hear D answer me.

"Can I have my turn with you?" asked D.

I looked at him and said "Yeah but only if Jay doesn't show up first. I want to give him time to come to me. A day or so, yeah maybe, we'll see. I don't know yet," I said as I saw D walking towards down a road in the desert. Then I threw my hands up and said "I got to go!" and I left D standing stranded in the middle of the desert by himself.


I guess what I get from this dream is when you love someone you don't let anyone get in the way of you and that person even an old flame. What do you get from it?

[chellchell86]

i think the same thing.that you 2 deserve a chance with eachother.so take it.

[SolderLover]

There are questions that has bugged me that no one has really answered before.

Will I get pregnant?

Will it be a boy?

Will I have seizures when I am pregnant and have to get a seizure dog?

Will I get amnesia about Jay again?

Thanks but these are the questions that I really need to be answered.

[SolderLover]

I wonder if Jay has a twin. If he does then I will probably stay in the love triangle because I would have to say they are identical or were pretty close at one time. That was why I was confused as a child.

[SolderLover]

ChellChell are you going to the New Moon movie tomorrow?

[chellchell86]

i hella want to but i dnt kno if i will have the money for it.pray for me that i will,lol.

[SolderLover]

Don't have a date willing to pay?

I'll still pray for ya.

That's how I got the money!!!

A friend of mine gave me a late birthday present!

[SolderLover]

Went to New Moon. It was like I have seen the movie before. I knew that neither of them would show up. Figures.