Reacurring Dream of an Ex for the past 12 years

[mminor]

Off and on over the years I have had dreams of and ex-boyfriend coming back into my life kidnappingme, running away with me, or just making love to me. I know I still have feelings for him but after 12 years I would think the dreams would decrees in frequency.

The last dream he takes me from work and drives me to a small mountain town where we stay for about a month. Never once in the dream did he restrict me from leaving but I felt that if I did I would be lost. While I was with him we made love not sex but love. Eventuality I left returning home because I had an overwhelming feeling of responsibility to others over my own desires. But back home I'm always looking for him to return and take me away again, but now I'm afraid of him finding out that I'm pregnant with his child and him never forgiving me or letting me go once he has me.

I wake up feeling torn and the feeling stays with me for about a week. Thanks for any help