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Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

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Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Ifalltoashes » Fri Dec 29, 2017 1:09 pm

This nightmare started about 1.5 months ago. I do not know of any triggers that might have caused it, and I was not experiencing stress when the nightmare began. This nightmare is exactly the same, all the way to the tiniest detail. First, it happened once a week, but the dream is happening more and more. I can remember it perfectly.

The dream starts off in a white hallway. There are walls, and the floor is tile. It is lit by fluorescent lights. The hallway has many windowless white doors on both sides, with round, silver handles. In the dream, I am always fully conscious, just like in real life. I can always think for myself and choose what I want to do. I walk around in the hallway for as long as I want to, (the hallway never ends). Finally, when I enter in one of the doors, the room is always the same. (I can wander the hallway for as long as I please, but I will not wake up unless I finish the dream.) A large ballroom illuminated by a very bright white spotlight. The rest of the room is in darkness, and I can occasionally see shapes and shadows moving in the corner of my eye. They make me afraid, so so afraid but I do not know why. I am shaking in my dream,( and upon waking up I have found what I assume are tear stains on my pillow. )As I enter and close the door (there is nothing I can use to prop it open) the door disappears. Standing with its (I believe the gender is female) back facing towards me is an angel. Now, the angels wings are perfectly black (think vanta black), to the point where light seems to suck into them, and it is wearing a black Victorian Era ballgown. Its skin is very white, and it’s limbs just a little longer than humanly possible. All in all, it seems unnerving. When I see it, I feel dread. Then, it turns around. The thing is, I can never recal its face. I can remember everything else, but never it’s face. The first time I had this nightmare, I screamed (my mother said I was making strange sounds in the middle of the night)so I can assume it’s face is horrifying, no matter how beautiful (and inhuman) the body is. Then, the angel falls into a bow, wings slightly folded, and kisses my hand. The feelings of horror and dread increase. (If you are wondering why I do not run, the spotlight, while pretty large, is in the middle of the room. Once the door closes, I have nowhere to go but to the things waiting in the dark. Once it touches my skin, I can no longer run). Then, the angel rises, and we start to dance. The dance in question is an old fashioned waltz, but there is no music playing. The angel has spoken a few times, and if I had to compare its voice to something I would choose a large, musical chime, not quite low pitched, not quite high pitched, but always ringing. It reminds me of a voice speaking suddenly in the dark when your ears are not accustomed to sound. It doesn’t speak often. When we start dancing, the angel smiles, and I don’t know how to write down my feelings. I feel more afraid than I ever had in my life, and the angel just smiles at me like I am a cow on its way to the slaughterhouse. Like I am prey. It’s teeth are sharp and white, almost like a predators. Everything about the smile screams “danger” yet I can never pull away. I am willing to bet anything nobody here has ever felt as afraid, not in real life, not in the dreamscape. And that isn’t even the worst part.

Once it smiles, and we make eye contact, I am shown “something”. Most of the time it (of course, I estimate everything, so this is more like how long it feels) lasts from anywhere from 10 minutes to 45 minutes. Do you know what it shows me? Dead bodies. My mother, father, friends, family, teachers, pets. Anybody that has ever been close to me. Dead. Only one person per dream, of course. And here’s the kicker-the longer I stay away, stave off sleep, resist the hallway and the room and the angel and the spotlight that always leads to this, the worst the outcome is. The worst one happened yesterday night. I was staying up as late as I could to avoid REM, and the nightmare that came along. I had been doing that for a week, and I haven’t seen the angel. But finally sleep caught up to me. I ran through the hallway, trying to reach the end. I saw double doors, and I thought for a minute, that I escaped. But no. The room was still there, and with it, the angel. The angel smiled and said
“Don’t even try fighting”
And then it showed my mother, the morning after. I was getting up when I realized my mother was not awake. I went to her room to see what was wrong. To my relief, her head was on the pillow. Unfortunately, the rest of her was not.
I don’t want to remember, but I do. I remember every last second. Everything in the vision (dream inside a dream) was in perfect detail. I couldn’t leave, I couldn’t run, I could only stay, fully conscious, in my mother’s room, morning light painting the walls red.

The dream always ends the same way. After I surface from the vision, the angel smiles, and pulls away from the dance. Then, she leans in, and traces my jaw with one finger. After that’s done, she quickly runs her finger along my throat. I don’t feel anything. Then I look down, and see blood running down my body. I don’t even have time to yell before she pushes me into the creature-filled darkness.

I die before they ever reach me.
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You see why I need help? The dreams are getting more and more frequent and violent. I don’t know what is happening. I don’t know what it means. I haven’t told anybody about this. I’m so afraid to sleep. I don’t want to see the angel. I don’t want to see yet another person dead. The worst part is that I remember everything, and I never know if one morning I’ll wake up to see my nightmare turn into reality. I try to stay up late, but it will always reach me, worse than ever before. I’ve never been so scared of sleep. What did I do to deserve this?
Help me, please.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby murph » Thu Jan 04, 2018 9:04 am

Seems like a hellish experience.. could be brought on by drugs (either legal or illegal), alcohol, poor health, too materialistic etc. .. or deep seated fear.. either way suggest getting professional help and need for spiritual help and turning to Divine light.. also worth noting that the hallway represents choice.. however you keep puting the spotlight (your focus or attention) on the fear/darkness and feed it more..
The best interpretation is the dreamers own interpretation.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby BlueDrmr*94 » Mon Jan 15, 2018 9:49 pm

Ifalltoashes: I don't know where you are with your recurring nightmare problem now, your post was last month, but I wanted to let you know that there is help in the form of learning to control your dreams. I would recommend the books by the dream researcher Stephen Laberge. He has devoted his life to dream research, in particular lucid dreams, and has some helpful things to say about nightmares. The book I'm familiar with is Exploring the World of Lucid Dreams. There are also many other researchers/authors out there with insight into these kinds of problems. Also, and you may not be in touch with this right now for obvious reasons, but there is an eerie,terrifying, and cinematic beauty to your description of this event.
I had trouble going to sleep after reading your post. But then I have my own bad dream issues. I suspect that you are tapping deeply into your creative self albeit in a deeply disturbing way right this minute. They say there is a good side or a lesson to be learned from these kinds of things. Again it's easy for me to say that I know. But I am thinking about you and wish you the very best and Godspeed in resolving this issue.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Ifalltoashes » Fri Jan 19, 2018 8:46 pm

I’m just going to say I’m not doing drugs or conspiring with the devil.
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I have just gotten back into writing, so that could be the creative self you were talking about.
I do have lucid dreams that I can easily shift or control, and I have always been able to change my nightmares.
It seems this one is just... different.
The dreams have gone away, well, kind of. I’ve been staying up until 4-5 AM, and that keeps my sleep light enough to where I don’t dream. I want to get a full nights sleep, but I’m afraid the angel will still be there, and will punish me worse.
So, sleep deprivation=no dreams=no angel.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Sheena » Sat Jan 20, 2018 1:47 pm

This dream is loaded with self-hate and the desire to be punished. So is dreamer's reaction to it. What awful thing have you done?
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Ifalltoashes » Thu Jan 25, 2018 8:28 pm

I haven’t done anything. When the dream started, I did absolutely nothing bad. It was just.. a normal day. Then the dreams started happening. I swear I don’t know what I’ve done.
I messed up again yesterday. Fell asleep at 11:30 instead of my usual (4 AM). The angel was not happy. I got to see my cat slaughtered over 1 hour. I don’t know how to make this stop. I’m just staying up as late as I can and hoping that I won’t mess up. I can’t afford to. The angel told me next time I stayed away it would be worse. I would stop caring, but the dream hasn’t shown me the one person I care about more than anyone. I guess it’s saving the worst for last.
Why aren’t the dreams stopping?
Help.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Sheena » Fri Jan 26, 2018 1:08 pm

You are over-focused on the dreaming, which is only a symptom, to avoid the greater pain of attending to your self-hatred and its sources.
Also, the word you want is recurrent.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby briandb » Sat Jan 27, 2018 11:12 am

Hi! I believe the being you are meeting in this lucid state is real. Lucid dreams can often take us to places of dread, and there are often beings there with us who aren't afraid of the same things we are. This being may be close to you, and is choosing to be a part of your life in this way at this time. If it feels right, talk to it out loud while you are awake (talking out loud makes a bolder statement). Say whatever you want, but you could start with "Hi, who are you, why are you showing me these things every night. I don't like it. It is terrifying. Can I please have a break? Can you help me understand?" A response may come in the form of a gut feeling if anything at all, but it is a start to dealing with this situation more head-on. It will also be helpful to have a chat when you get in bed, something like "Alright, buddy, what have you got in store for tonight? I can take whatever you throw at me." Simply stating that you have power in this dark place will begin to turn the events. Be ready for the day that you can stand tall through this dream.

Dark pits - Lucid dreams where we meet people from a different perspective can often involve falling into dark pits filled with fears - it is a place where exactly what we expect to be in the darkness comes alive. You are dipping into your own darkness to face it head on, and is a very brave thing to do. You can't beat them as long as you're afraid, because they're made of your own expectations. Find your own peace and calmness in the room full of monsters, and they'll slowly turn into friends. While you are awake, try inviting these guys to come closer to you. You will be fine, and you'll learn that you are as strong as a lion.

Hope this helps. This interpretation is from my own experiences. Sometimes you have to be a little crazy to dive deeper into yourself. Please ask questions if you have any!

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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Sheena » Tue Jan 30, 2018 8:36 am

To Brian - That method is a good one. You do not need ontological commitment to use it.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby briandb » Wed Jan 31, 2018 6:21 pm

Agreed! Believe what you want.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby Ifalltoashes » Tue Feb 13, 2018 1:04 pm

So, Brian, you are suggesting some outside supernatural influence?
I’m not sure speaking to it out loud would work, but I am willing to try. I guess I’m not supposed to antagonize it?
Well, I’ll try tonight, and see how it goes.
Wish me luck.
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Re: Horrifying Recurring Nightmare-Please Help

Postby briandb » Wed Feb 14, 2018 1:09 pm

Interpret the situation in the way that feels right to you. If you like the sound of it being something supernatural, give it a try for a little while and see where it takes you. I believe that interacting with dream characters like this as if they were real has a strong impact on our imagination and experience, even if we try to engage with them while we are awake. You can also interpret this being as a metaphor for what is going on in your life or inner self, so it can be thought of as talking to yourself or your own subconscious.

Through my own experiences, I think this being may believe it is in service to you and is open to communication. It knows that you are powerful enough to have these experiences, and that ultimately you can choose to heal any pains and face any fears. As you grow in fearlessness, your waking life can also open up in new ways, and this being may want to be supportive of your life journey in this way.

No worries about saying or doing the wrong thing. You're free to express yourself. I like to try to joke around a little though to lighten the mood.

Worth a try, let me know how it goes! : )
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