I am forbided to feel love.

[Xterain]

In my dreams, i dream i am alone every single time i don't know why.
last dream, i dreamt i lost someone i loved it was horrible, it may just be a dream, it was like a memmory
i was holding someone i loved othrough my soul every breath i breathed was heavier then a hammer slamming
as my loving one was left dying

i am sorry, and i was in that dream for hour's watching him die, i could feel the rain hit the window's harder and harder
i could feel the thunder coming close and closer untill the last breath is drawn, i lonely walk in this forrest
screaming in sorrow,

untill i stand on top off a cliff i could feel the sun rise i kneel as the storm leave's, i feelt a silence.. an echo
a hole.. getting bigger and bigger, tear's falling more and more and the dream stop's
and the only part i couldn't get off my mind, and still can't
was when i holded him by the fire, the passion.. the candle's.

and in real life, it seem's no one can deal with me, more and more goes away it's like everyone can see inside the hole, that scares them all
i've tried up to 4 time's and it just wont work, my heart stop's. and i push them away without even knowing
maybe it's really true, maybe i am not meant to love another one.

[ineedintrepationhelp]

Well, idk if im allowed to comment on this, but i will. What i see here is plain and simple self esteem issues, how you percieve yourself, most likely thinking youre gunna be alone the rest of your life that day suggestively told your mind that and the subconcious did its work while you were asleep. Dreams represent emotions, and the emotion of loneliness you could of had that day probably influenced you to dream as such. Its easy to tell you want someone who loves you for you. The Black Hole and all, but a part of you believes that it cant happen bc you automatically push people away, yet with the sunlight, a common connection, when the daylight comes things will be alright, you could feel that there is still a shot for your true love, or even that after its all said and done, even if you are alone, thatll youll still be alive and making it. Also, if everybody gets pushed away, its not just bc of you. There could be something they do that triggers your subconcious into rejection, something that they do can make you feel uneasy. Maybe try looking for a different type of guy? Or, maybe you have the prince/princess standards and you need to lower your standards. Nobody's perfect, but its the flaws that we love people for.

Quotes: "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" What would life be like if we all had the same haircut?

Relevance: Nobodys gunna fit your dream guy, come down to humanity level and maybe change your type all together. If we all had the same haircut, like if guys matched all standards, then where would the complication or trials in a relationship be? If someone says they have the perfect relationship, theyre lying, bc theres no such thing as perfection, and the only way a re;ationship, even including bonding with someone, can get stronger, is by trials that strengthen it.

[Xterain]

Well, idk if im allowed to comment on this, but i will. What i see here is plain and simple self esteem issues, how you percieve yourself, most likely thinking youre gunna be alone the rest of your life that day suggestively told your mind that and the subconcious did its work while you were asleep. Dreams represent emotions, and the emotion of loneliness you could of had that day probably influenced you to dream as such. Its easy to tell you want someone who loves you for you. The Black Hole and all, but a part of you believes that it cant happen bc you automatically push people away, yet with the sunlight, a common connection, when the daylight comes things will be alright, you could feel that there is still a shot for your true love, or even that after its all said and done, even if you are alone, thatll youll still be alive and making it. Also, if everybody gets pushed away, its not just bc of you. There could be something they do that triggers your subconcious into rejection, something that they do can make you feel uneasy. Maybe try looking for a different type of guy? Or, maybe you have the prince/princess standards and you need to lower your standards. Nobody's perfect, but its the flaws that we love people for.

Quotes: "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" What would life be like if we all had the same haircut?

Relevance: Nobodys gunna fit your dream guy, come down to humanity level and maybe change your type all together. If we all had the same haircut, like if guys matched all standards, then where would the complication or trials in a relationship be? If someone says they have the perfect relationship, theyre lying, bc theres no such thing as perfection, and the only way a re;ationship, even including bonding with someone, can get stronger, is by trials that strengthen it.

I have no exact requirement, and i don't want people pushed away. perfection does exsist, but rare

[ineedintrepationhelp]

To even think that perfection can exist, even with thinking that its rare, holds you back. You can't move on or make something better in your life without the strive to change for it. When you finally find that guy, the one that loves you, then youll understand more of what i mean. Youll see that a relationship is more of an artwork when love gets involved. Some times you gotta work on the details, some of the details are small, some of them are large, but that doesnt change their importance. Also i can tell when you are in a relationship, i bet you put a lot into the first couple weeks, or the honeymoon phase, and when the giddyness goes away, you feel like you cant trust the person you're with. Slow down. Enjoy whats right in front of your face.

[Xterain]

To even think that perfection can exist, even with thinking that its rare, holds you back. You can't move on or make something better in your life without the strive to change for it. When you finally find that guy, the one that loves you, then youll understand more of what i mean. Youll see that a relationship is more of an artwork when love gets involved. Some times you gotta work on the details, some of the details are small, some of them are large, but that doesnt change their importance. Also i can tell when you are in a relationship, i bet you put a lot into the first couple weeks, or the honeymoon phase, and when the giddyness goes away, you feel like you cant trust the person you're with. Slow down. Enjoy whats right in front of your face.

well, I am bisexual "thank you".

and i hear every word you say or reads

if you think it's impossible it will hold back and make it impossible.