dream about my own death?

[mommy02]

I had this really wierd dream and I cant stop thinking about it....b4 u read my dream u must know that a friend of the family just passed away 1 month ago from a tragic car accident and I have been thinking about him a lot lately. Every night b4 i go to bed i pray for his family and the driver of the car ( his wife) of the accident he was in. And they have been the topic of conversation alot lately due to the unexpected accident.

My dream...
My husband and I are driving in a car on our way to his fathers wedding. I look over at my husband and he is wearing jeans. I say to him "u r wearing jeans to your dads wedding!" The next thing I know he is now in a suit. We get out of the car and start running to the church and I'm thinking to my self "Oh my god we are late!" Then someone stops us and says "Right here it is" and points to the ground. We r suddenly in a cemetary. My husbands grave and mine r next to each other. My husbands grave already has grass grown over it (as if he had died a while ago) but my grave has a big mound of dirt on it and lots of dead flowers (almost as if my funeral was just a couple days ago). The next thing is...sudden I'm laying in a casket. I am middle aged, not an old lady, and I start to wake up, but I am watching this whole thing happen. I am wearing red and have long red finger nails.

The next thing I know we r at a party. This whole time my husband is with me but we never talk to eachother. Some one comes over to me (some1 I dont know) and I ask them if i am dead, but i dont say the word dead I spell it out d e a d, almost like i am affraid to say it. The person tells me yes, i am dead. At this party there are dead people and alive people together talking. I notice this and ask what is going on, y r we all talking to eachother ?(almost like i was suprised the dead were talking with the living) This person tells me that this is just how it is, we all r together we just co exsisit with eachother. i ask this person if i can just go home then and be with my 2 kids. She tells me I can but it usually doesnt work out that way.

The next thing i know my 2 friends (the young man that just died in the car accident and his wife) walk in. When they walk in they look so happy and r smiling. When i see them i go right up to them and give him a big huge, which felt very comforting in the dream. I then pull his wife aside and say "does he know that he is dead?" but i dont say the word i just spell it out. She tells me yes he does and smiles. In my dream i am worried and i dont understand what is going on. I then see my best friend. I go over to her and tell her i must speak with her. She tells me I am acting wierd and walks away from me.

That is my whole dream in detail...sorry for it being so long but its really been bothering me. What could all that mean?
I was really freaked out that my husbands grave already had grass grown over it and mine was fresh, as if he passed b4 me. i was also wierded out to see my self in my casket! I was however glad to see my recently deseased friend smiling with is wife. Lately his wife has not been smiling.